Sometimes it gets lonely, my stomach ache. I just need a short conversation; "hi, I am from here, I like this and.that" and then never chat again.

I need it because I am 24/7 in an apartment, and I have a lot of stress. You sometimes just need to chat or listen to them.

I think we would all hoard data if it was cheap.

Today I had to suggest cloud storage. That's the cheapest and easiest to maintain.

There is optical storage solutions that is adequate for most consumers and even LTO tapes it is fast enough, can be produced cheaply but the drives are advertised to businesses and sold with that business premium cost.

This bugs me. Also the fear of being deported soon

I did enable "display deleted post" setting

On reddit every time I open it I see new posts, but lemmy algrothim no matter which way of sorting I choose it shows me the same stuff.

I think this lower exposure of new posts

I think there should be a toggle that applies to all sorting algrothim where it hides posts you stopped at for 1 second while scrolling or opened it.

Also, peepeepoopoo

On reddit every time I open it I aee new posts, but lemmy algrothim no matter which way of sorting I choose it shows ms the same things.

I think there should be a toggle that applies to all sorting algrothim where it hides posts you stopped at for 1 second while scrolling or opened it.

Also, peepeepoopoo

I like to pick the language of the post because I assume that helps lemmy to sort posts and suggest the correct language to uses.

Every time I have to scroll so a search bar is my suggestion and picking your favorite languages if you are multi lingual.

The favorite languages should be not limited to a limited number.

My stomach burns, literally out of stress. I wish to call someone, but there is no one right now.

I am from the country where Donald Orange attacked, and living in UAE.

UAE has no naturalization law. So no matter what a resident would never get citizenship.

UAE started deporting random people from random countries for national security reasons.

It did deport some years ago when their tensions between uae and my country. They would call you and ask you to pack within three days.

It is hard. I am not smart enough to move out to a country where I can settle.

And I rather be here, it is the country I know.

I am not very bright. I don't know what problems mentally I have except autism because I got diagnosed young and I can see the issues I have and had, but even that I wonder what is it exactly because they say it is a spectrum and don't like gradients, i like definitive diagnosis. Clear black and white

Diagnosis of mental or neurological stuff is not simple and costly.

I have the money... well, my father has, but I feel ethically I can't use it on me, except for absolute necessities.

I had memory lapses, the best the neurologist did was a test on paper! Questionnaire! And got diagnosed with MCI.

The same goes with Epilepsy, autism, etc.

I wish if there was a brain scan or something.

Anyway, that why I am very sick. I didn't treat many health issues since 2018, since I told him or maybe he told me, just sit and eat and do nothing.

I do remember though, that I told him I will eat and spend only on necessities. That why, I don't go out, buy stuff, or go doctors unless the situation is bad.

I tried to work and leave this country, i didn't realize how mentally slow I am. Well life humbles you.

I envy those in countries where they get help with things they can't do because of their condition, and oh they also get help to work. A job they are capable to do.

Sitting in a room 24/7 for over 6 years is not fun.

I am doomed, when he is gone, I don't know what I will do? Except end it.

If I got deported, I have no idea what I am gonna do, but end it.

I have online friends asking me to go learn programming, or something online to feel productive and happy, but it is not easy.

The stress is always there. Oh, I can't go back to my country, it is the country where Donald boy attacked 6 month ago.

Life is a game and I lost. Damn it... well, my stomach is not burning, I think typing these along with those hot tears helps feel better.

Peepeepoopoo

I do cry a lot, and when I am too stressed the tears are too hot, my the usual warm

My stomach burns, literally out of stress. I wish to call someone, but there is no one right now.

I am from the country where Donald Orange attacked, and living in UAE.

UAE has no naturalization law. So no matter what a resident would never get citizenship.

UAE started deporting random people from random countries for national security reasons.

It did deport some years ago when their tensions between uae and my country. They would call you and ask you to pack within three days.

It is hard. I am not smart enough to move out to a country where I can settle.

And I rather be here, it is the country I know.

I am not very bright. I don't know what problems mentally I have except autism because I got diagnosed young and I can see the issues I have and had, but even that I wonder what is it exactly because they say it is a spectrum and don't like gradients, i like definitive diagnosis. Clear black and white

Diagnosis of mental or neurological stuff is not simple and costly.

I have the money... well, my father has, but I feel ethically I can't use it on me, except for absolute necessities.

I had memory lapses, the best the neurologist did was a test on paper! Questionnaire! And got diagnosed with MCI.

The same goes with Epilepsy, autism, etc.

I wish if there was a brain scan or something.

Anyway, that why I am very sick. I didn't treat many health issues since 2018, since I told him or maybe he told me, just sit and eat and do nothing.

I do remember though, that I told him I will eat and spend only on necessities. That why, I don't go out, buy stuff, or go doctors unless the situation is bad.

I tried to work and leave this country, i didn't realize how mentally slow I am. Well life humbles you.

I envy those in countries where they get help with things they can't do because of their condition, and oh they also get help to work. A job they are capable to do.

Sitting in a room 24/7 for over 6 years is not fun.

I am doomed, when he is gone, I don't know what I will do? Except end it.

If I got deported, I have no idea what I am gonna do, but end it.

I have online friends asking me to go learn programming, or something online to feel productive and happy, but it is not easy.

The stress is always there. Oh, I can't go back to my country, it is the country where Donald boy attacked 6 month ago.

Life is a game and I lost. Damn it... well, my stomach is not burning, I think typing these along with those hot tears helps feel better.

Peepeepoopoo

Edit: My father is a little disappointed or maybe sad that I don't drive. My mother too

They want us on clouds paying for a subscription. Otherwise these cartridges which can hold terabytes and last for 50+ years would be dirt cheap like your ex.

A cabinet like device where it has an arm to change tbe cartridges, and a software/ssd to view metadada, thumbnail, video preview is all a family needs... I think

I want to preserve data but it is hard and costly.

Bonus: imagine if the software would help you pic archival grade file formats and warn you when a file format is going obsolete.

There is a cool software I use called Wincatalog.

Cuckoo out

I don't like dem changes, it makes me go crazy for some years.

I researched shelf life of the plastic used and I already know the rate which my eye glasses break. So I will be rocking these for the next decade or more.

That's it dear dull men.

The same message thread shows in other Boost

It took me over 15 minute to pee. The pain is horrible.

I can't treat it. I blame and hate my father but then it is also my fault.

I don't know whose fault it is.

I was born slightly retarded. Never felt i was back then, but life Humbles you.

I am almost 40, have so many ailments because i am a moron.

To be fair, they say it is executive function, but it is also my ethics, i don't deserve treatment.

I was born in uae, and I am from Iran.

I can't go back to Iran.

Uae will eventually deport me because of Donaldo Orango moron

If not this time, then next time.

The plan is to jump but i couldn't before.

I looked down and wanted to live.

If i could just have a county because i beverages mine now. A home in my name and a job i could find something.

I realized now that i could never be fast as a normal. Person but i could accept less pay and do some work.

I feel humiliated

My. Humanity taken. From me

The psin is horribly.

I just wish if someone would bring s gun and shot me in the skull because that's easier..i can't don't it myself.

This is not living, i am just breathing not alive

I rarely see the sun or hangout with other humans.

It is hard. It has been like this since 2018

I just cried because I saw this animated video of how nature, it looked amazing, I missed my childhood home.

You see, I live in an apartment.

And I am in middle east and near the coast the and apparently the AC unit is not dehumidifying and I can't change it since it came with the apartment.

I have to get a dehumidifier, it will cost a lot, and I promised my father that since I failed life I will just spend on necessities.

That why I didn't go to doctors, and get a dehumidifier, phone etc. For so long.

Per the system it took me 2 years to get a replacement for a microwave. It was hard.

Now, I am so agitated, I can't sleep with humidity level 60 to 70%

I miss being out. I just miss it.

It seems, I am alone in this.

No other person with autism on reddit or lemmy is in a similar situation.

I envy those with high functioning autism who have no mental retardation. And bizarrely those who habe the sever kind,.they are taken care of.

Sorry, I am really down, I feel like I can't be myself, and being alone is hard

And what's the origin of that phrase?

And yes I am an old geezer, a slow one too.