I'd just like to say that I appreciate your stance on open registration and making things as uncomplicated as possible. I signed up for a Beehaw account before this even happened, but I did find having to explain myself and justify my presence a little confusing. I also signed up for a discuss.tchncs.de account and I was so confused and thought their website was broken because once I clicked sign up, it didn't do anything. Just span around in a circle. It wasn't until I checked my email that I realised it wanted me to confirm my email. Here, things did just work. No complications, just entered my name, email and password, clicked sign up, and I was done! I guess you could say... shit just works on sh.itjust.works

Hi everyone thanks for all the kind replies yesterday, I really appreciate them all ♥️

I'm okay, the reason the nurse on call (which is a fantastic service btw) wanted me to go to the ER was (I'll try and be brief, to spare you all the grossness), because they thought there might have been bile in my vomit. The ER confirmed I probably don't, and ruled out any appendicitis or serious bowel/stomach issues. They think I probably have gastro, which is shit, but I'll be right in a few days. They also gave me an anti emetic so I was able to have a rest

I'm back off to sleep, but I should be right. Thanks again everyone for your well wishes 🫂

Nurse on call reckons I need to go to the hospital, so off to hospital I am :/

I've officially moved into my new place. It's so different and feels so normal. Like.. there's just (sharp) knives out in an unlocked area, that's not something I've experienced (save for maybe hotels and such) in about 5 years

It's so bittersweet, obviously it's more bitter than sweet at the moment and I'm a bit of a mess. But there's a lot to like about this house, and the freedoms that come with living here. I think the best part is just that the people I'm living with all seem respectful, and that's already leaps and bounds ahead of how things have been in my last place over the last few years

Thanks for the kind words/wishes yesterday, and low for reaching out

I just want to clarify in case I've sent the weekly message, I'm okay. Well I'm about 30% okay, but I'll get through it.

I left because over the last few months I've really just felt like a burden pretty much any time I say anything. It's not entirely because of what I say, but I think more often because I realise that everyone else, whether here or not, has much larger issues, while I'm off complaining about minor things in approximately 7,000 worse per comment. I tried to fix that by cutting down on what I say, how often I'm here, and by trying to help other people when I could, or otherwise try and be openly empathetic (I used to hold off because I thought that "aw I'm sorry such and such is happening to you. Hope it stops happening soon!" sounded too much like a hollow statement, despite finding it very helpful when people would reply to my troubles similarly). But usually I ended up figuring out a way to make it about me, which was pretty awful of me, and I almost deleted my account a few weeks ago when I realised. But I took a little break instead

The break doesn't seem to have helped, I think I'm just genuinely shit at anything that's not a 1 sided dialogue. I hate that, and to be honest, kind of despise myself for it. Probably a side effect of not having many friends when I was younger so not developing proper social skills, and being in care for so long, where everything very much is one sided and hollow. But in any case, it's a deficit that I realise I have, and can't seem to be able to fix. But I think because of that, I'm not a very good person to interact with, so until I do work it out, I just don't think I do anyone any good being around here

But I do sincerely appreciate the help and advice everybody here had given me. You are all amazing people, and I'm sorry for the troubles I've caused

I'll be back one day, but I don't think I should come back until I know I can do better. I actually think that may come naturally once I move out and into an environment more conducive to good mental helath

✌️

Unpopular opinion, but it seems like the mods little protest is working. Most members are pissed about all the Florida posts, 90% of the DT is people whinging about it. I don't imagine anyone who stumbles across the sub now would want to stay

I'm a feeling a bit upset around how things have been going recently. I'm not necessarily disappointed about the sub returning to how it was, but it just all feels so pointless. Like what the fuck was that? Everyone (myself included) hit the roof and there were sub despicable comments about the mods and a handful of others, and what was it even for? The subs just gone back in time 2 weeks, all the hatred, negativity and pessimism was all for nothing. I was all for protesting, and as I said, I don't necessarily think things should've continued as they did, but it doesn't seem like there was any way to win

All the recent goings on combined with the usual mid week blues and wintertime SADs has led to a whole lot of mindfuck for me

I'll be back, probably. Boredoms a mofo and reading what everyone's up to is a good cure.

I wish everyone peace and love ☮️✌️♥️ and I'll catch you all later in the week

If anyone remembers all my long rants in the Reddit DT, I have some kinda good news about it.

Things at the hosue have been much more settled, it appears one of them (the main noisy one) will be moving out and back in with his family. He hasn't been here in about a month and a half, so things have been more chill. One of the others is just going about her life as usual. She tells and throws things once every day or two still, but not as bad as it was. And then the other one is still chill, he's never caused many problems

And on the lead tenant thing I mentioned a while ago, it seems things are going well. They lined up a house that sounds chill and I had my first meeting with the program coordinator on Tuesday. She gave me a rulebook I need to read, and then this coming Friday we meet with her again and I officially sign the papers. After that, it will be about 4-8 weeks until I move in.

It's still stressing me out a bit, mainly because I don't fit one of their requirements properly and I'm only about half fulfilling it. Allegedly they'll be pretty lenient on it, but lenient as in they'll accept me, but if I don't 100% meet it within a few months, I'll be locked back and sent back into Resi.

It's also kind of fucking with my head because I've been here for 4 years, and although I've never considered it to be, or felt that it is my home, that's the longest I've ever lived anywhere in my entire life. For about 3/4 of those years it's been pretty bleak living here and felt like a never ending nightmare, but now that it is ending and comparitively the end is so close I can basically touch it, it feels is backwards to what I'm used to

Things for my move are all set in stone now. Neither I or the org I'm moving to are allowed to back out now. Since CP have set a date, I WILL move whether I'm happy about it or not. They really have found a way to suck all of the excitement out of it, I was pretty neutral on it until I'm told I no longer have a choice and in 12 days I'll be moving somewhere I've never even seen yet

Damn, all the going ons have been really affecting me recently. The kid getting stabbed on Monday night was the straw that broke the camels back. Of course people have been stabbed since the invention of stabbing instruments, and it happens in every suburb, city, country, and in every decade, year, and (seemingly) month, but it's pretty shit that it all seems to be happening right around my area

This one, and the one that happened in sunshine a month ago are particularly affecting me because on top of them happening in my area, they're both my age too. I'm probably sounding kind of entitled/selfish but it's just a hard nut to swallow that they were my age doing the same thing I do several times a week, then someone decided to just.. end them... Forever gone, all that potential just lost for good

Feels like a bit of an Everything's coming up Millhouse Baku moment. I had my first drive today. Only 20 minutes, but I didn't crash. I've also come to the conclusion that I should temper my expectations a bit, because I was way overconfident 😂😂

Good news for those who aren't using Reddit anymore: this DT has almost twice as many comments as the one on Reddit. Thats good for us, since I and a few others were expecting a lot of people to zoom on back to Reddit the moment the sub reopened

One interesting thing I noted from a quick flick through, there seems to be a lot less replies to comments, but a similar amount or maybe even more upvotes than usual. Makes sense since the sub has about 600k members, and like 95% lurk (what's that effect called again? The 90-9-1 rule I think?)

It probably won't last though, I don't think we'll lose many people just put of losing interest at this point, but since Reddit is by far the larger platform and r/Melbourne the larger community, it's just kinda basic maths that eventually more people will go to the larger community on the larger platform and start engaging there. But at least we have cemented ourselves as a solid alternative Melbourne community off Reddit!

Happy new year and happy quarter century, DT peoples!!!

::: spoiler The cat is not amused, but calmed down pretty quickly :::

I watched the 9:30 ones at Footscray park, and was planning on heading into the city but I was surprisingly tired so just went home

::: spoiler Got some nice photos (in my sole opinion), though!

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The only thing I don't like about watching the fireworks on the telly is that they're always like 2 minutes behind what I'm hearing. But I forgot to wash the one nice jacket I own, and evidently the weatherman forgot that it was hot yesterday

P.S as a bonus, I can see my real Spotify wrapped through lastfm now, without a large chunk of listens after like October when they stop counting being missing

::: spoiler spoiler :::

I wish you all the very best for the new year!

♥️

I've got just over 2 full days left before the big move. It's a lot easier to cope with now that I've been to the house a few times, know it's not a shithole and I've met the lead tenant mentor people and know they're alright. I'm still a bit annoyed by the whole being forced to move in before I'm ready thing, but I'm trying not to think about it too much because it's kinda just a waste of energy and emotion

There's 1 other kid there at the moment, and he was meant to move to a different place today, but then the supreme beings of child protection changed the date yesterday, because of course they did. So my move in was pulled a week forward, and his move-out was pushed a week back, but from what I've been told (I haven't been able to meet him), he seems chill and does stuff most of the day, so things should be alright. But if worse comes to worse, he's only there for 4 days after I move in anyway

I got some kinda sad news today. So CP wanted me to move out and into lead tenant on the 15th, and I said that was way too soon and I'd want a longer transition to at least early August and proposed August 1st s my official move in date. They said no and that the best they'd give me is the 24th and I should be happy they compromised at all

I mean I guess I am lucky they compromised because usually they dont, but it's just kinda giving me flashbacks to all the random days they've told me I have a few hours to pack my bags and then they ship me off to some new house. I mean, it's still 20 days away, and I have been wanting to move out for the last 4 years, and it's only a week earlier than I was hoping for, but it kinda sucks I don't get to control my own timelines

Also the lead tenant place hasn't even given me the address yet. They gave me the street and suburb, but no number until after the 3rd meeting. I also had to pick out furnitures for my room despite not even knowing how big my room is, so that's fun

Just to really make my last day interesting, I seem to have eaten something bad, or come down with something, and now I'm sick, so now I get to pack my boxes with a bucket next to me the whole time

Happy wrapped day DT people!

Last year you all called me an old soul. This year spotify beat you to the punch-

::: spoiler 'listening age' :::

Bonus points for the day I listened to 168 artists and 159 songs in a single day

::: spoiler 'most diverse day' :::

I must've been going through something, but I have no clue what or why

More generally, glad to see this place is still going. Hope you've all been keeping well

So, continuing on from my good updates on Saturday, my absolute favourite worker I've ever met left a few months ago. He took a job as a counsellor at a different org. There's been a few months of clearing it with various people and making sure there'd be no potential conflicts, and nobody could invent a way to twist a good thing into something terrible, but last week it was all approved and given the tick. I'm allowed to go counsel with him, and we have our first session tomorrow!