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Do many others also feel life is another chore?

For sure, much of life feels like a chore. You can enjoy it or not is what it boils down to much of the time.

I've tried to hold the idea of if it's worth doing it's worth doing well. And generally doing the best I can, especially if I fuck hate what I have to do. It makes looking back easier. And in some ways generates respect and then elevated me out of some shit to less shitty shit

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Margaret Atwood, "Up".

This reminds me to be mindful of my time in this life. It reminds me to remember Tecumseh and his words. He is one of one of the greatest men and his words speak to me like nothing else

Always be ready to....sing your death song and die like a warrior coming home

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What's the most unforgivable sin done in media that you're still bitter about?

I'm still bitter about the first Spiderman movie (the Toby McGuire one). Like growing up, Spiderman was my favorite comic character and I spent a lot of time and money following it.

I almost walked out of the theater when Spiderman let the guy who killed his uncle fall to his death. Like JFC this is THE most important moment of Peter's life and what he always goes back to when he's in a moral dilemma.

It's made me sour on watching any of the other Spiderman movies.

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What it something a parent did that damaged your relationship with them forever with no recovery.

I don't speak to either of my parents. Both are still alive from what I can tell. My mom has deep mental health issues she refuses to accept and deal with. She probably has dementia and last time I spoke with her she thought everyone in the family was dead. Her story is sad and I tried for years to help her but you can't help someone who won't help themselves.

My father was never really around me growing up. I didn't even know who he was until I was like 8 and he was in the hospital because he almost died in a drunken car wreck. He killed his best friend and crippled his best friends brother. I was homeless and asked to live with him when I was 15. He was always drunk but one night after coming home from the bar slurring drunk and threatened to shoot me in the head with his shotgun in the wood shed, I went and lived with my best friend for a year and then my older sister for the last year in highschool. Later in life I tried to reconnect with him but one day he showed up on my doorstep demanding money for a car he cosigned and I couldn't afford so we turned it over to the bank. He demanded I pay him back because it hurt his credit score. Like the dude was never in my life and didn't pay child support or when he did it was always late. Caused me a lot of pain and suffering.

I unloaded years worth of pain and suffering he caused me that day and haven't spoken to him in over 30 years.

The joys of modern Native American life....

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How to live in the age of AI - Gautami Reddy

I wish my grandparents were around... It's is and always will be the biggest loss of my life. Sometimes I will have a moment of pure bliss in remembering them and usually it's gone in a blink of the eye.

If you have those people in your life, cherish it and make sure to absorb everything so they will live on through you