There's the obvious "if you're a homophobe, transphobe, racist, abelist" etc etc etc. Like obviously that makes me lose respect for people.

But I think if you judge someone for doing something that you deem "weird". I used to so that until I learned that like, hey we're all fucking weird. Who cares.

And the chucklefucks on local Facebook groups are gonna eat this shit up.

She's gone.

Never gets easy.

Edit: Just want to say I love you folks a lot. Sorry for making things a bit of a downer! But I appreciate everyone of you, thank you for all the love.

This shit just pissed me off.

It's really hard for me to go to the pharmacy due to chronic pain and just getting there in general. So being able to dispense two at a time would be helpful as.

Liberals are absolute scum.

One of the additional things that sucks is here in Australia if you're unemployed and/or disabled you can sign up for Centrelink and do Job searching there. But it is just terrible, because not only do you have to look for a certain number of jobs (I think abled-bodied people can do 20 jobs per month, whereas I got to apply for 12 due to disability), but every 2 weeks you have to go in and spend maybe 10minutes or more traveling to the jobseeker place and tell them "no I haven't heard back from anyone, yes I've applied for jobs, etc".

On top of that, if you're disabled you'll get fucked over because you can't work, you know you can't work, but Centrelink refuses to put you on the National Disability Scheme because you're not disabled enough (people who have missing limbs have been told that their missing limb will grow back, or you'll grow out of it. Some disabilities aren't even on it, like ADHD isn't considered a disability and only "high functioning autism" is allowed). But you can be a part of the Disability Employment Scheme (DES) where you still have to apply for jobs, but not as much, but you get some benefits over being a regular Jobseeker.

Generally, the whole thing fucking stinks and I'm so thankful that I'm finally out of it. That and the fact that those receiving Jobseeker payments are being paid below the poverty line because the government refuses to put it up.

I just, ugh. Job seeking sucks, especially when businesses ask for 50million years of experience but it's entry level. Or the fact to get experience you need to work in this field but to get in this field you need experience. Ugh.

Got to sleep in, have scrambled eggs, didn't need to rush to make a coffee. Now it's time to get ready and go to work. Start of my birthday is going good! Can't wait for whatever shit show happens later.

So I've been seeing counsellors/psychs/etc on and off since I was 13. I'd get really bad, and then we'd talk and then i'd get better and then I leave and the cycle renews itself. So about 2021 I had a really shitty counsellor. All he wanted to talk about was me getting a job, when I said to him in my final session that I want to get tested for ADHD and could he do a mini test so I'm not wasting over a grand to get told no. Anyways, he asks me like more hyperactive stuff and typical of boys, and then he goes "I don't think you have ADHD because I could tell". Negating the fact that the 5 sessions I had with him I've mentioned how I forget things, I procrastinate, I would rather play video games than do anything else. Like... he sucked, I hated him.

So, I do some Googling and find one who is close enough, schedule appointments and I've been with her ever since. She's not the type to try and "fix me", she's there for me to talk about things, she's super understanding and caring. And she also went through a diagnostic tool with me and confirmed that it is likely I have ADHD (this was before I was tested). Also diagnosed me with C-PTSD. So anyways, cut to May or so of this year, and I'm getting my appointment ready and the MHCP is wrong. Ugh, okay reschedule. Next appointment, my MHCP is not a MHCP it's actually those 5 free appointment things that I'm using for my physio so I can't use them for my psych. Next doc appointment the doc tells me that I don't have any Medicare appointments (which is wrong) but he'll get it figured out.

I never got a call or anything. So finally today going to the doc to get some scripts (and also got my doc cert to take tomorrow off, I don't care if it's unpaid I need it), and I think telling my doc that I have some not happy thoughts, I was able to get the correct MHCP.

Sorry for this long message, I'm just very happy I can see my psych again. I don't gatekeep here, if anyone needs a psych that's all telehealth, go see Roslyn Delrayne, she is just the bees knees!

Yep the subreddit was so depressing all the time, and they also hated the term "neurodivergent" which I mean I don't know, let people identify the way they want to? I like queer for me in terms of my sexuality, but some don't like it, I don't like it/its as a pronoun, but I'm not gonna stop someone identifying that way.

And it's not like subs can't be a place to vent, because hey, sometimes ADHD does suck. But also the fact that it was constant depressive posts, or "my doctor doesn't believe in ADHD" or "my relative is stealing my meds". And it's just like... yeah so depressing. And like I see ADHD as a disability, because it is, but yeah... it's just... a sub to be helpful for those with ADHD, sure fuckin' hates those with ADHD.

Love recommending podcasts!

• Like others have said, Behind the Bastards is great to find out about some of the worst people in history.
• In relation to that Cool People Who Did Cool Stuff is the opposite of Behind the Bastards. It's about people who did cool stuff who became cool.
• Also in lieu of that, Bad Gays, it's about bad gays in history. I think they've covered similar folks on BtB, but this is obviously from a queer perspective.
• Fad Camp and Maintenance Phase are great podcasts about dieting and wellness. Fad Camp is more about how damaging some of these diets can be, whereas Maintenance Phase is similar to You're Wrong About (which I also recommend)
• The Weekly Planet are these two Australian guys who talk about movies, tv, comics and video games. They also have a YouTube channel called Me Sunday Movies where they'll upload some of their podcasts. Like they have a running segment called "Caravan of Garbage" which is just sort of talking about a movie, tv show or game. Currently they've started going through the RoboCop movies.
• Also shameless plug, but Checkpoint is on the radio but they take their radio show and put it on a podcast. It's a podcast about giving a 1up to diversity in video games. Most of us are from the LGBTQIA+ community and that's where most of our perspectives come from, but it's also just folks from any marginalised group. Lovely bunch of folks (if I do say so myself).

Uh yeah, I have some more, but like that's politics or it's writing related or spicyness in or out of the bedroom. But these are the ones I always recc.

I wrote a huge thing about period pain and PCOS but having second thoughts because I'm not too sure if it's appropriate? I did spoiler it and warn for those who don't want to see it. But yeah. I've got no where else to talk about it and it's just like a lot of ??? and ughhhh pain.

If it's cool then I'll reply to this, if not well, I won't... I guess?

Yeah it's a hotdog and ice cream chain. I wonder if they'll have to change the name similar to Hungry Jacks because Burger King was already a restaurant when they came over here.

The driving lesson went great, I even drove on one of the main roads. The instructor is very nice and really calm and understanding. Will definitely do another lesson with her.

::: spoiler cw: mention of possible dog passing away I'm scared that I won't even have six months with my dog... It never gets easier. :::

Today's ride to work is in a Tesla! It's a fancy car but I still hate Musk.

CW: Diet culture + medication

One of the things I hate about diet culture (amongst everything) is how there's medication and people go "oh you can also lose weight!". Like... it feels so gross. I was listening to my news thing with Google and I was listening to CNN and they were talking about Ozempic, and how America advertises medication on TV they played one of their ads and it's like "this is for people with diabetes, but it can also help you lose weight!" and it's like so gross. I feel like people with diabetes is trying to just survive the day and not worry about losing weight.

Similar to when I had my psychiatrist appointment to start taking Ritalin, and my psych is like "it's great for adults because you can lose weight, usually for kids we have to watch them just in case, but for adults it's great." And I'm like sitting there, a fat person, just like... ugh. Felt so gross. Like, I just want to be able to make it through the day and get my tasks done, and not procrastinate, I don't care if it makes me lose weight.

It's getting worse. I think it's time. I'm leaving work early.

I know this is a fact of life, but it's a terrible fact and I hate it! Hug your animals for me and tell them landsharkkidd loves them very much.

I did my due diligence and voted early. While a democracy sausage is great, I just don't want to deal with people and my chronic pain.

So two teachers in East-Germany are basically leaving town because they called out so many students playing music with racist lyrics, drawing swastika's and using the Nazi salute with other students. And parents in this town wanted them to leave essentially and this is just wild. Especially since Germany did a lot of stuff to try and stamp out Nazi-ism after WWII.

Had a chat with my boss, and I apologised for listening to things. He said that it's fine to listen to things, just not to have my phone out. So podcasts and music are back on the menu boys!

I love my partner, I don't think I'd be the person I am now if it wasn't without them pushing me to my dreams and our dreams.

But man I hate trying to figure out what to make for dinners when we're together. They're a picky eater, but I understand why because their family fucking sucks. Like I have issues around certain food (I hate cauliflower, some mushrooms (love me some woodear in ramen), and I hate fat on meat, I don't mind like some, but I just... I can't, it's so gross), but they are such a picky eater. But I just, ugh. I needed a place to vent about this. Again, I know its not their fault, but man it makes it so hard trying to think of recipes that isn't just meat and chips.