Hail Satan

the biggest evil

Calling me heretic and deviant in my early teens, Getting enormously angry when I try to challenge their viewpoints (once they said that even if we are wrong, you have to say that we are right, upon which I remained silent and they get angry), Being against other religions and ideologies, mocking them and calling LGBTQ+ a mental illness (luckily, I did not come out to them), Being angry and thinking I am arrogant if I choose not to talk to them and to be in my own space, Forcing me to eat and drink a lot more than I want, Comparing and belittling me yet still saying "We love you", Not letting me go outside and now they complain why I don't go outside, Always saying, "We did not even beat you or did anything physical. We give you so much comfort but you disappointed us, you pimp, dog, bastard", Saying I am not masculine just cuz I am extremely careful not to neglect my sunscreen, I get sick here and now and so I trust medicine over the pseudoscientific remedies, and many other things which made me lost trust in them and entire humanity and even myself sometimes. I will not forgive them.

I am not in the US.

The father of all lies. I have seen no one that lies as much as him and these AI bros. They should be deported to Mars. They do not deserve to live on Earth

Damn! on the one hand, humans are doing innovation in science and technology and on the other hand, such barbaric things still exist in this world.

Mayor's worst nightmare came true

Basically, it was combination of many things that lead me to disbelief but firstly, it was the double standards I saw in my religious community and the inability to tolerate questioning and also too much division even though my religion's holy scripture claims that it is a clear book, and if it was from other than God, you would find a lot of disagreements. And being an atheist has somehow gave me freedom and sadness like when I was in religion, I can do only limited amount of things and cannot be truly myself, I was always worried if me and my parents would end up being in hell or what if I lose my faith in God or what if I got punished in my grave, I am also bisexual so the part that it is sin made me cry and pray a lot to take this "abnormality" away from me, now I do not need to hate myself and my feelings and desires, I can be friends with anyone and can do a lot of things which I cannot do, I can question my views more boldly and look for unrestricted knowledge. Sadness came though due to the fact that God, who was the source of comfort and fear for me, the source of ultimate truth, the only thing I can trust to, my dearest friend whom I can call upon anytime, to whom I can talk in my whispers, is dead. That death causes me pain. Although I sometimes invoke a different god from my religion but deep down I know they also don't exist and so it makes me sad. And also, it stripped me away from that main character vibe that I am part of some special group who have the word of God and ultimate truth, worthy of forgiveness. Now I am just a tiny part of a huge cosmos.

Offline, not as much. There are only a few people whom I can trust and talk openly. We use double meaning words and not so obvious wordings that can make us bypass the radar of public. I act like a person who is sad from God like a sad believer. Online though, I feel pretty brave but I don't reveal my crucial information like from which city I am, how do I look like, and etc. Thanks to anonymous platforms like this and Discord.

Damn, I get hate for this even from many atheists. They think I am being misogynist but I do believe any gender can rape anyone.

Trying to do that and yeah, I want to read as much as I can before these techbros end up destroying all the books that we have right now.

Where I live, they already had frozen hirings.

Maybe their sin was living in a Kafir country and not moving to an Islamic one. (if asked by hardcore Muslims)

Nah, we can be mob-lynched or kidnapped out of our places due to "blasphemy" taken seriously and it all exists online mostly. We have to be very careful and most of us remained closeted atheists at least when we are living in that country.

The corporate culture is also quite insane and dehumanizing. This motivates me to be poor than to earn these fellows.

Is it true what you wrote about British government? Anytime I talked with people from Britain, either I end up talking to a crowd that says "Islamists are taking over UK" or a crowd that says "Right wing is problem". I really never got what they are doing these days.

I personally like to eat rolls (it is kinda like wrap if you are in US), BBQ (we have bunch of kebabs in our BBQ and they taste very good).

Even the one who are not identified as labors like IT guys, xyz engineers, they have a lot of pressure and the shitty corporate culture.

I saw a post on Reddit saying that Jesus was not a pacifist.

Yeah maybe. Some people online even asked me if I am autistic or not. I think something is wrong with me but unfortunately, I cannot access therapy.