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Butch transfemmes: how is your butchness similar _and_ different to that of our non-transfemme butch siblings?
I don't know whether I'm butch or not, because I don't really try for a butch look. What I do know is that I don't really "get" femininity and masculinity. I can perform either or both, but they both feel like I'm acting, rather than expressing something from within myself.
I don't have pierced ears, I don't wear makeup, I don't do my nails, I don't do skin care etc, and I'm just as likely to be found in jeans and a tshirt as I am in a dress. With clothes, my goals are as few layers as I can get away with, and as easy and comfortable as possible.
I know I've sometimes felt like the odd one out, because I don't really connect with femininity, but on the other hand, I've been in the community long enough to realise that every one of us has an something that doesn't fit the narrative, and we nearly all struggled with feel disconnected because of it. These days, I still scratch my head and wonder what I'm missing, but I don't feel disconnected or othered because of it. I've been in the community long enough to know that it's my community, and to feel it in my bones.