in my personal experience, attraction has little to do with gender and much more to do with personality. if i just don't vibe with the other person, it doesn't matter whether they're male/female, i can't get with them. It has literally nothing to do with gender. everything with mindset. ok i admit it, the body does play a role, but not 100%.
Yeah a lot of bi people feel that way. I lose all horniness when I smell "man smell". And I can say it's absolutely about that because the incident was with someone who had just stopped testosterone and after a few weeks we were sleeping together a few times a week for months.
Personality is nice for me, but it's body shape and feel and smell that do it for me, and it all points to women for me.
I'm going to enjoy torturing my 14-year-old self. My 14-year-old self was a shithead. But I was raised in a conservative Catholic house, and at that age I firmly embraced the version of reality common among the Fox News set. I was that annoying conservative high schooler. Sure I was repping hard, but I was still an idiot.
Now I'm a late-30s trans woman, about to celebrate 8 years of marriage to my wonderful husband.
The things I can say. I'm going to haunt this kid's dreams.
::: spoiler trigger warning
By age 10, I'd already decided I was going to kill myself at 24, and I was looking forward to it, assuming I hadn't already died by then. By my 14th birthday, I was doing my annual countdown from 10.
:::
I don't know if I'd be excited that I found things that made life worth living, or consider myself a failure for getting it wrong when I tried. Reflecting on that age, I don't think myself an idiot or anything, I just see a kid who tried their best with what they had, and had already given up on what seemed like an inescapable situation. I feel bad for 14 year-old me, and I'm not sure I'd be able to face that kid without feeling completely destroyed.
Why 24? If you don't mind asking. That's kinda odd number.
Like i chose 18, as im an adult by then and all the drug lectures at school painted a picture that I'd be offered drugs everywhere. So the plan was to OD at 18th birthday, seemed kinda nice way to go and a better alternative than become communal Fleshlight in the prison. Not that there was even any realistic threat of that happening, but thats in hindsight.
So, I don't know if there's some kind of psychological phenomenon at play here — but it sounds like something very similar to a circumstance my mom went through (albeit, the stakes were much different).
She used to smoke, and when she decided she wanted to have a kid (eventually me) she gave it up. What she told herself was that if she quit and wanted to start back up at 65, ok? Who cares, she's already old at that point so it's not like it's worse than having smoked for the previous 45 years.
Eventually never went back to them. She is actually repulsed by cigarettes now.
I think what I take from that is my mom didn't really give up cigarettes, at least not psychologically. In her mind she could go back at any time and there was no issue, she'd just go back to not smoking (and she didn't even do that, she just quit). I wonder if maybe a similar thing happened to you here? You gave yourself a goal so far ahead in the future that you also gave yourself ample time to grow — even if that goal was inevitably death. It's almost like sewerslide was your way of equalizing the playing field.
Idk, I could be wrong — I'm glad you didn't go through with it, though.
I accredit proper medication, scaring the shit out of my friends and family who I thought would have been happy if I were gone, and LARGELY that change in mindset that you're talking about.
Even better (by 14 yo me standards), I met a pretty girl online, whom I later married and got into the industry (albeit, less cultured? Lol).
When questioned by my childhood self why I am not making games myself, I point to my backlog and we both nod in agreement before I thoroughly wreck him in Smash Bros.
You think you could beat 14 year old you in smash bros?
I was way better at fighting games when I was a teen than now. I played Street Fighter recently because of whatever compilation they were selling. I suck at it now. I bought sf2 like 4 times now and beat the game with each character back in the day. It's hard to get past the 2nd stage now.
If I had advice to give my younger self, I'd have to be very careful about the whole causality problem. At 45 I have two awesome kids aged 5 and 2. I have an amazing wife who multiplies both my happiness and ability to make a living. Both my wife and I were previously divorced. I wouldn't change anything that might prevent me from meeting her and helping to bring my kids into the world.
If I had perfect temporal guardrails that would ensure this family path, I'd tell my younger self that it works out pretty well in the long run, but huge mistakes were needed to forge me into who I am today. Also, buy Nvidia stock.
“teenage/school years are the best years of your life”
I think it's a point in your life when you are old enough to do things you've never done before but young enough to still have plenty of room to take risks, fuck up, and come out better for it.
Not the apex of your career or the peak of your romance life or anything. But the moment when anything is possible and you shouldn't feel hedged in by obligations or fear of failure.
Real talk, i was on Accutane back then and i seriously don't remember much of my life between 13-15yo. I was only supposed to be on it for 6 months but insurance crap left me taking half doses for a couple year. The pros of that time are, ill never have a pimple again...
cons include, i have extremely dry skin all the time, i tried to murder my mom, i tried to kill myself several times, i have limited memory of my early teen years, it took me years afterwards to feel "like me".
Would 14 year old me be proud of me? He'd probly pull a knife on me and forget it ever happened.
Ha ha sorry got a little dark there for a second.
IDK if its even available anymore but stay away from that crap if it is.
I was also on Accutane in high school. The worst was after swimming in a pool -- the chlorine made my face and lips literally crack. Never tried to kill anybody, at least.
I dunno about "proud", 14-year-old me was around when saying "gay" was usually a punchline, or an insult. Maybe he'd be surprised about my ex-boyfriend. Or my current boyfriend.
Whatever problems he might have with my current self, he'd definitely come around after all the insider trading information I'd give him. Then he'd definitely be quick about doing things I actually wish I'd done sooner, like quitting marching band and switching to theatre. Focusing on trades, rather than racking up debt, then later burning out trying to get an engineering degree. Things like that.
I think i would be mostly proud of myself. I did a lot of things right, but recently i keep asking myself the question "would i want to spend time with myself"? Like if there was a perfect clone of myself, same mindset, same body, same everything, would i like them?
Most of my life, the answer has been "Yes". Now, i'm starting to respond to it with "no", actually not. I'm just not the kind of person myself that i myself would like to be around; ironically that's what makes me more popular among other people, it seems. So i've traded liking to be around myself to others liking to be around me. I still like myself, but i wouldn't wanna be with another version of myself, if that makes sense. Of some things, there better exist only one of it, if you know what i mean.
I would just encourage 14 year old me to knock my dad out until he figured out I wasn't his beast of burden to yell and scream at. The last time he laid hands on me was 14. At the time I didn't realize I physically intimidated him.
I think 14 year old me would be most disappointed that I'm no longer catholic. She'd probably be a mix of angry and excited that I'm trans. Shocked and confused when I explain to her that her parents' marriage is really really bad and she's going to need therapy for the way her dad treats her. Then she's going to be kinda pissed when I tell her that her dad is right about her needing to do better in school, it's just that he shouldn't be yelling at her until she self harms about it. She'll be proud I'm still friends with her friends and that I got out of Ohio to somewhere cool.
Oh then she's going to be incredibly disappointed I married someone with tattoos, especially since I'll call her a classist little shit about it, and that I never had kids.
I think mine would be torn. On one hand I'm retired in my forties and play video games all the time... On the other hand that's what I do with my life.
14 year old me would be confused and horrified by more than one thing. Starting with the LGBTQ+ acceptance, no faith, the fact that I'm doing a job that would be considered inhumane at all, and that I'm under some boss.
On top of that, I am no longer asexual, so imagine how mind-blowing that is to someone for who doing the things I did was completelly unthinkable.
Oh and the whole saving a life thing, my psych diagnosis proving I'm not simply lazy, the anti-human relationships outlook, lack of gaming desire.
I don't know how to break this to you, WorldsDumbestMan, but the last lab results just came in and it turns out we have very strong evidence that suggests you are extremely lazy, just in a really complicated way.
:P
Probably not 14-year-old me, but 12-year-old me, yes, because I used to lie to my classmates that I lived in a three-story geodesic dome home with a hot tub on the top main floor, and now that I am an adult, by complete and total happenstance, I live in a three-story geodesic dome with a hot tub on the top main floor.
I am not attempting to defend my lying, I know it was stupid, it was foolish, and I regret it to this very day, but it is interesting that it became the truth eventually.
14 year old me would not even have the capacity to comprehend it.
Future was just some made up nonsense back then and absolutely every single adult was part of a hive mind connected back to my mother.
In addition, people weren't really people, they were more like background noise who i had to be cautious of. The world didn't exist outside my field of view.
Not really, still the same. Though don't get me wrong, as i can assume it gets interpreted as i treat people badly or abuse them in any way. I don't. I am not a sociopath or psychopath, that has been confirmed by a psychologist. I just completely lack the "connection" concept with people or some specific type of an attachment. ASD hits my social aspect the strongest.
For me people aren't really special, we're all just biological machines. Pretty much the same as a robot vacuum cleaner, just much more complex. I treat objects and people the with the same love and care, but that means that people melt into the same indistinguishable background noise. Like how much attention do you give to a random item on the street when walking past it? Just enough to not stumble into it and that's it.
Though I've never understood why it's supposed to be bad? It's not in any way harmful to others, maybe even positive as there's no judgment or any negative treatment towards them and once i have to actively engage with anyone. I remain cordial and often times even outright friendly and helpful.
I think a lot of people view strangers that way, as obstacles to be avoided. You're just more honest about it than most of us are.
It's pretty obvious to me when I walk down the street in my city that most people have that view of anyone they perceive to be of a lower social class.
That's an interesting observation. Though i can't say there's any difference between different social classes. Pretty much everyone will melt into background noise, unless I'm specifically looking for that specific individual.
14 year old me knows that if he ever sees me he should start running. Unfortunately for him I can just run 14-year old me over with the family van. Then back up. Then drive again. Then backup again.
Other than possibly confusing me for our dad, yeah. I'd be impressed by what I have accomplished. I'd also be annoyed at the life advice I'd give myself.
Yeah. Wiser, a bit less impulsive free from the abuse of my parents, still playing Magic, still reading comic books, covered in tattoos, been to every punk show that kid ever dreamed of going to and more, touched boobs (like, under her bra even) on a few occasions… I got to be the adult 14yo me wanted to be.
I've led a life that even I sometimes have to remind myself isn't a dream
I have loved deeply, been married, divorced, engaged again to the person who is my best friend
I have travelled, seen amazing things, lived in a few countries and experienced things I couldn't have imagined
I have studied at university, as well as getting a trade and progressing a very long with that
I have been wealthy, I own some stuff that the younger me would think is pretty cool, but I have few material possessions now because "stuff" doesn't really matter to me
I have lived in some of the biggest cities in the world, and now I enjoy peace and quiet in one of the most beautiful places in the world
The porn I create has tens of millions of views, I've done things that are wild, creative and on occasion, sexy
I'll support people with it, but I don't advocate for it. It's something that can change your life for better or worse in an instant, and I have experienced both
I was lucky enough to thrive when I was close to being destroyed by somebody's malice. Few are so lucky.
Mine is performance art more than porn, but for those who enjoy it, they really like it and that's lovely for them
Absol-fucking-lutely they would. 14 year old me was dealing with some bullshit and would be ecstatic that we got through it and that things got better. Kudos to anyone who survived their teens and come out even mildly well adjusted, much less happy.
honestly if I met my 14 year old self I'd give that kid a hug. they wouldn't accept it, but wow did they need it. turns out shit does, in fact, get better.
I think 10 year old me was the coolest! That was clearly my peak.
42 year old me now wonders why I can't wear boxer shorts, and drain chains as a necklace, with a yin yang charm on a bracelet anymore, while drinking a capri sun.
I'd say probably. But would be very sad in how little we ride bike now (used to be all the time, year round, rain, snow, or sunshine). But we're not yelled at every single day! Got a good job that even teenager me would think is cool.
I mean...14 yo me would be pretty put off by my smoking fentanyl on the weekends to feel normal again cause methadone is a hassle / the bupe shot feels like being set on fire. The prescription drug addiction started at 15, so ehhh. 26 years later and I still love dope. Put it in my lung, veins, nose, mouth, I don't care. Just want to nod into the void.
Brotha have you ever thought about starting to cut back and see how it feels?
Man I really hope you can get this under control for yourself dude. The methadone might be a hassle but it can seriously be one of the best ways to get you out of the cycle. It does work and will make you not get sick which can then help you focus on living your life like other people that aren't using drugs.
That's the hardest part is transitioning back to what normal people do and are about and it takes awhile to actually feel that joy from those things but I swear dude it will happen after enough time and it will move you like nothing else has to be on that end of it and look back and see what you overcame. I don't know you, but I believe in you seriously. Believe in yourself because you can overcome this problem in your life if you put all your effort into it. I promise its worth it.
Yeah, I mean i have only had one nickname stick with me. I got it when I was a kid because I'm ugly and it stuck when I was an adult because it fits my musical instrument.
Finding out I helped define how that instrument is played in the 21st century is not going to help teenage me right after I got that nickname.
More than anything he'd probably be enlightened by the fact that I like banging dudes too.
Considering how horny I was at 14 I’d have been stoked to know there was even more sex I could have.
Shame I’m not even a little bi. (I checked.)
Well as long as you did your due diligence, I'm sure no one will complain.
Nothing proved to me that being gay isn’t a choice more than desperately wanting to get off but going soft in another man’s mouth.
in my personal experience, attraction has little to do with gender and much more to do with personality. if i just don't vibe with the other person, it doesn't matter whether they're male/female, i can't get with them. It has literally nothing to do with gender. everything with mindset. ok i admit it, the body does play a role, but not 100%.
I think it's different for everyone, but same here
Yeah a lot of bi people feel that way. I lose all horniness when I smell "man smell". And I can say it's absolutely about that because the incident was with someone who had just stopped testosterone and after a few weeks we were sleeping together a few times a week for months.
Personality is nice for me, but it's body shape and feel and smell that do it for me, and it all points to women for me.
Relatable lmao
Did he think he'd stop banging dudes when he got older?
No, he didn't realize that he totally wanted to
Probably not, but the Steam Deck would blow his mind.
I would've shat myself over VR and so many other things.
I would still shat myself over vr if i could ever play it
Even if you can't afford to play vr, you could still shat yourself
Wow you are right I just shat myself and it feels so real
He would admire my game library, maybe even hate me for it. I wouldn't tell him I don't play any of them.
Yeah I'm what my 14 y/o self never wanted to become and I'm fine with disappointing him lol
Look man, If I wanted to disappoint two people at once I'd take my parents out for dinner or find a couple of neurotypicals and have a threesome.
If dinner goes well enough with your parents, maybe you can kill two birds with one stone.
Made me actually laugh out loud
huuuuuuuuuuurk
Tua!
that gave me a chuckle-urp. nice.
I'm going to enjoy torturing my 14-year-old self. My 14-year-old self was a shithead. But I was raised in a conservative Catholic house, and at that age I firmly embraced the version of reality common among the Fox News set. I was that annoying conservative high schooler. Sure I was repping hard, but I was still an idiot.
Now I'm a late-30s trans woman, about to celebrate 8 years of marriage to my wonderful husband.
The things I can say. I'm going to haunt this kid's dreams.
I'm happy you found yourself and your husband, that's awesome!
Thanks!
Haha oh fuck yeah!
Hell yeah she would. I'm relatively safe and no longer being traumatized, that's all she ever wanted.
14-year-old me would not be impressed, but 24-year-old me would be.
The difference is experience and understanding what the hell we're all up against.
Good answer
I'm not sure if I'd be proud or disappointed.
::: spoiler trigger warning By age 10, I'd already decided I was going to kill myself at 24, and I was looking forward to it, assuming I hadn't already died by then. By my 14th birthday, I was doing my annual countdown from 10. :::
I don't know if I'd be excited that I found things that made life worth living, or consider myself a failure for getting it wrong when I tried. Reflecting on that age, I don't think myself an idiot or anything, I just see a kid who tried their best with what they had, and had already given up on what seemed like an inescapable situation. I feel bad for 14 year-old me, and I'm not sure I'd be able to face that kid without feeling completely destroyed.
Why 24? If you don't mind asking. That's kinda odd number.
Like i chose 18, as im an adult by then and all the drug lectures at school painted a picture that I'd be offered drugs everywhere. So the plan was to OD at 18th birthday, seemed kinda nice way to go and a better alternative than become communal Fleshlight in the prison. Not that there was even any realistic threat of that happening, but thats in hindsight.
From a school assignment asking what I would be like at 25 years old. I decided that I never wanted to be 25.
That makes sense, thank you for sharing.
So, I don't know if there's some kind of psychological phenomenon at play here — but it sounds like something very similar to a circumstance my mom went through (albeit, the stakes were much different).
She used to smoke, and when she decided she wanted to have a kid (eventually me) she gave it up. What she told herself was that if she quit and wanted to start back up at 65, ok? Who cares, she's already old at that point so it's not like it's worse than having smoked for the previous 45 years.
Eventually never went back to them. She is actually repulsed by cigarettes now.
I think what I take from that is my mom didn't really give up cigarettes, at least not psychologically. In her mind she could go back at any time and there was no issue, she'd just go back to not smoking (and she didn't even do that, she just quit). I wonder if maybe a similar thing happened to you here? You gave yourself a goal so far ahead in the future that you also gave yourself ample time to grow — even if that goal was inevitably death. It's almost like sewerslide was your way of equalizing the playing field.
Idk, I could be wrong — I'm glad you didn't go through with it, though.
I accredit proper medication, scaring the shit out of my friends and family who I thought would have been happy if I were gone, and LARGELY that change in mindset that you're talking about.
Thank you for sharing that story
That little fuckhead got me into this mess.
I'm one of the few people who's 14 yo self would fucking admire, mostly for stupid teenage horny reasons but also video game industry reasons.
You work in the cultured video game industry?
You're doing the lord's work 🫡
Even better (by 14 yo me standards), I met a pretty girl online, whom I later married and got into the industry (albeit, less cultured? Lol).
When questioned by my childhood self why I am not making games myself, I point to my backlog and we both nod in agreement before I thoroughly wreck him in Smash Bros.
You think you could beat 14 year old you in smash bros?
I was way better at fighting games when I was a teen than now. I played Street Fighter recently because of whatever compilation they were selling. I suck at it now. I bought sf2 like 4 times now and beat the game with each character back in the day. It's hard to get past the 2nd stage now.
It's more that I was not particularly good at it yet by 14, and Smash is particular. Plus I haven't declined (yet), but maybe when I hit 40, hehe.
I'm playing video games all day every day. He would be amazed. It's adult me knows it's bad
ftfy.
At 14 I was self harming and only couple years from my first suicide attempt. I don’t do either now, so yes, probably
If I had advice to give my younger self, I'd have to be very careful about the whole causality problem. At 45 I have two awesome kids aged 5 and 2. I have an amazing wife who multiplies both my happiness and ability to make a living. Both my wife and I were previously divorced. I wouldn't change anything that might prevent me from meeting her and helping to bring my kids into the world.
If I had perfect temporal guardrails that would ensure this family path, I'd tell my younger self that it works out pretty well in the long run, but huge mistakes were needed to forge me into who I am today. Also, buy Nvidia stock.
I'd just term me to buy crypto in 2010 and sell in 2017. After its all gravy
Probably not, but I'm not very proud him either soo...
Look, I'd like to see that little shit do better.
14 y/o me would be pretty damn jealous.
It's a good feeling
Yeah, 14 y/o me had a lot of shit to wade through before he could be me. Now hes just sad it will be a lot harder for future mes.
There are many reasons I chose not to have kids
He'd probably give suicide a lot more consideration.
I just want to hug him and tell him and anyone his age that "teenage/school years are the best years of your life" is a bold-faced LIE.
It gets better.
It gets WAY better.
Leaving a small town, with small people, with small minds was a revelation
I was finally able to start becoming who I am, rather than what was needed to survive
Am happy for you and hoping for the best of you in the future :D
I think it's a point in your life when you are old enough to do things you've never done before but young enough to still have plenty of room to take risks, fuck up, and come out better for it.
Not the apex of your career or the peak of your romance life or anything. But the moment when anything is possible and you shouldn't feel hedged in by obligations or fear of failure.
Real talk, i was on Accutane back then and i seriously don't remember much of my life between 13-15yo. I was only supposed to be on it for 6 months but insurance crap left me taking half doses for a couple year. The pros of that time are, ill never have a pimple again... cons include, i have extremely dry skin all the time, i tried to murder my mom, i tried to kill myself several times, i have limited memory of my early teen years, it took me years afterwards to feel "like me". Would 14 year old me be proud of me? He'd probly pull a knife on me and forget it ever happened.
Ha ha sorry got a little dark there for a second. IDK if its even available anymore but stay away from that crap if it is.
I had no idea it could do all that.
I was also on Accutane in high school. The worst was after swimming in a pool -- the chlorine made my face and lips literally crack. Never tried to kill anybody, at least.
I dunno about "proud", 14-year-old me was around when saying "gay" was usually a punchline, or an insult. Maybe he'd be surprised about my ex-boyfriend. Or my current boyfriend.
Whatever problems he might have with my current self, he'd definitely come around after all the insider trading information I'd give him. Then he'd definitely be quick about doing things I actually wish I'd done sooner, like quitting marching band and switching to theatre. Focusing on trades, rather than racking up debt, then later burning out trying to get an engineering degree. Things like that.
14-year-old me would be shocked that I'm even alive at 38, let alone living comfortably with a loving family.
I think i would be mostly proud of myself. I did a lot of things right, but recently i keep asking myself the question "would i want to spend time with myself"? Like if there was a perfect clone of myself, same mindset, same body, same everything, would i like them?
Most of my life, the answer has been "Yes". Now, i'm starting to respond to it with "no", actually not. I'm just not the kind of person myself that i myself would like to be around; ironically that's what makes me more popular among other people, it seems. So i've traded liking to be around myself to others liking to be around me. I still like myself, but i wouldn't wanna be with another version of myself, if that makes sense. Of some things, there better exist only one of it, if you know what i mean.
14 year old me would be very impressed with the things I have in my garage, but I'm not sure he'd be impressed with a depressed man in his 30's.
I would just encourage 14 year old me to knock my dad out until he figured out I wasn't his beast of burden to yell and scream at. The last time he laid hands on me was 14. At the time I didn't realize I physically intimidated him.
I think 14 year old me would be most disappointed that I'm no longer catholic. She'd probably be a mix of angry and excited that I'm trans. Shocked and confused when I explain to her that her parents' marriage is really really bad and she's going to need therapy for the way her dad treats her. Then she's going to be kinda pissed when I tell her that her dad is right about her needing to do better in school, it's just that he shouldn't be yelling at her until she self harms about it. She'll be proud I'm still friends with her friends and that I got out of Ohio to somewhere cool.
Oh then she's going to be incredibly disappointed I married someone with tattoos, especially since I'll call her a classist little shit about it, and that I never had kids.
14-year-old me would also be very disappointed that I'm no longer religious. She would be afraid for me because I have gay and trans friends.
Poor little Nicki. She was brainwashed and didn't know better. Fortunately, she got better after her first semester at university.
Honestly 14 year old me might not like what I do, but I wish she could have found out then what I would finally become.
I think mine would be torn. On one hand I'm retired in my forties and play video games all the time... On the other hand that's what I do with my life.
14 year old me would be confused and horrified by more than one thing. Starting with the LGBTQ+ acceptance, no faith, the fact that I'm doing a job that would be considered inhumane at all, and that I'm under some boss.
On top of that, I am no longer asexual, so imagine how mind-blowing that is to someone for who doing the things I did was completelly unthinkable.
Oh and the whole saving a life thing, my psych diagnosis proving I'm not simply lazy, the anti-human relationships outlook, lack of gaming desire.
I don't know how to break this to you, WorldsDumbestMan, but the last lab results just came in and it turns out we have very strong evidence that suggests you are extremely lazy, just in a really complicated way.
:P
Yeah but I'm not gonna read that
Probably not 14-year-old me, but 12-year-old me, yes, because I used to lie to my classmates that I lived in a three-story geodesic dome home with a hot tub on the top main floor, and now that I am an adult, by complete and total happenstance, I live in a three-story geodesic dome with a hot tub on the top main floor.
I am not attempting to defend my lying, I know it was stupid, it was foolish, and I regret it to this very day, but it is interesting that it became the truth eventually.
I always wanted a geodesic dome house!
They're fine...until you see the monolithic concrete dome home!
https://www.monolithic.org/
I want a house that laughs at tornadoes, earthquakes, and the rare simultaneous tornadoquake.
If 14 year old me isn't impressed with all the MILFs I hang out with on the regular now, #1 being my wife, his judgment can't be trusted.
14 year old me would not even have the capacity to comprehend it.
Future was just some made up nonsense back then and absolutely every single adult was part of a hive mind connected back to my mother. In addition, people weren't really people, they were more like background noise who i had to be cautious of. The world didn't exist outside my field of view.
Holy moely! Did something change your mind/perspective or do you still see people like that?
Not really, still the same. Though don't get me wrong, as i can assume it gets interpreted as i treat people badly or abuse them in any way. I don't. I am not a sociopath or psychopath, that has been confirmed by a psychologist. I just completely lack the "connection" concept with people or some specific type of an attachment. ASD hits my social aspect the strongest.
For me people aren't really special, we're all just biological machines. Pretty much the same as a robot vacuum cleaner, just much more complex. I treat objects and people the with the same love and care, but that means that people melt into the same indistinguishable background noise. Like how much attention do you give to a random item on the street when walking past it? Just enough to not stumble into it and that's it.
Though I've never understood why it's supposed to be bad? It's not in any way harmful to others, maybe even positive as there's no judgment or any negative treatment towards them and once i have to actively engage with anyone. I remain cordial and often times even outright friendly and helpful.
I think a lot of people view strangers that way, as obstacles to be avoided. You're just more honest about it than most of us are.
It's pretty obvious to me when I walk down the street in my city that most people have that view of anyone they perceive to be of a lower social class.
That's an interesting observation. Though i can't say there's any difference between different social classes. Pretty much everyone will melt into background noise, unless I'm specifically looking for that specific individual.
i transitioned, my 14 year old self would cry from joy
I would kick 14 year old me in the ribs without a second thought. Kid was dumb af.
14 year old me knows that if he ever sees me he should start running. Unfortunately for him I can just run 14-year old me over with the family van. Then back up. Then drive again. Then backup again.
Shocked that I am still alive.
Extremely unsurprised by my mental health.
Other than possibly confusing me for our dad, yeah. I'd be impressed by what I have accomplished. I'd also be annoyed at the life advice I'd give myself.
Yeah. Wiser, a bit less impulsive free from the abuse of my parents, still playing Magic, still reading comic books, covered in tattoos, been to every punk show that kid ever dreamed of going to and more, touched boobs (like, under her bra even) on a few occasions… I got to be the adult 14yo me wanted to be.
Actually probably yes.
"What's your allowance?"
"Over $20/week"
"Wow, that's a lot of money"
I'm an incredibly lucky man
I've led a life that even I sometimes have to remind myself isn't a dream
I have loved deeply, been married, divorced, engaged again to the person who is my best friend
I have travelled, seen amazing things, lived in a few countries and experienced things I couldn't have imagined
I have studied at university, as well as getting a trade and progressing a very long with that
I have been wealthy, I own some stuff that the younger me would think is pretty cool, but I have few material possessions now because "stuff" doesn't really matter to me
I have lived in some of the biggest cities in the world, and now I enjoy peace and quiet in one of the most beautiful places in the world
The porn I create has tens of millions of views, I've done things that are wild, creative and on occasion, sexy
I'm the luckiest bastard on Earth
Username checks out
I don't believe in false advertising
more people need to make pornos, it's a rite of passage
It's not something I recommend
I'll support people with it, but I don't advocate for it. It's something that can change your life for better or worse in an instant, and I have experienced both
I was lucky enough to thrive when I was close to being destroyed by somebody's malice. Few are so lucky.
Mine is performance art more than porn, but for those who enjoy it, they really like it and that's lovely for them
I just think it's funny
Absol-fucking-lutely they would. 14 year old me was dealing with some bullshit and would be ecstatic that we got through it and that things got better. Kudos to anyone who survived their teens and come out even mildly well adjusted, much less happy.
Now? Doubt it.
Like 3-5 years ago? Sure.
honestly if I met my 14 year old self I'd give that kid a hug. they wouldn't accept it, but wow did they need it. turns out shit does, in fact, get better.
14 year old me would wonder how im still alive LOL
My 14 year old self would just be impressed I am alive
I think 10 year old me was the coolest! That was clearly my peak.
42 year old me now wonders why I can't wear boxer shorts, and drain chains as a necklace, with a yin yang charm on a bracelet anymore, while drinking a capri sun.
Here's the thing: YOU CAN, though!
I've seen multiple people naked in person so yeah, I'd be a god to 14 year old me.
I'd say probably. But would be very sad in how little we ride bike now (used to be all the time, year round, rain, snow, or sunshine). But we're not yelled at every single day! Got a good job that even teenager me would think is cool.
14-year old me was way cooler than I am. I seem to be declining with age.
Yeah my response will be almost same just replace impress with depress they even rhyme.
I mean...14 yo me would be pretty put off by my smoking fentanyl on the weekends to feel normal again cause methadone is a hassle / the bupe shot feels like being set on fire. The prescription drug addiction started at 15, so ehhh. 26 years later and I still love dope. Put it in my lung, veins, nose, mouth, I don't care. Just want to nod into the void.
Brotha have you ever thought about starting to cut back and see how it feels?
Man I really hope you can get this under control for yourself dude. The methadone might be a hassle but it can seriously be one of the best ways to get you out of the cycle. It does work and will make you not get sick which can then help you focus on living your life like other people that aren't using drugs.
That's the hardest part is transitioning back to what normal people do and are about and it takes awhile to actually feel that joy from those things but I swear dude it will happen after enough time and it will move you like nothing else has to be on that end of it and look back and see what you overcame. I don't know you, but I believe in you seriously. Believe in yourself because you can overcome this problem in your life if you put all your effort into it. I promise its worth it.
No shit.
Nahh, that interaction would just kickstart depression like a year sooner.
Yeah, I mean i have only had one nickname stick with me. I got it when I was a kid because I'm ugly and it stuck when I was an adult because it fits my musical instrument.
Finding out I helped define how that instrument is played in the 21st century is not going to help teenage me right after I got that nickname.
Actually, sort of.
14 year old me unironically listened to Sargon of Akad. I would kick that little shit in the ribs before sacrificing him in a Blòt.
14 year old me was an asshole, so I hope not
Unironically think they would be proud. I clawed my way out of the depression pit and am working on the plans I had since I was younger.
Yeah