EEEEEE!

Yeah i’m pre-HRT. I have been shaving and trying to grow out my hair (using minoxidil to hold off the balding) while trying to dress in ways that make me happy. I figured if i’m too scared to talk to anyone at least i could live my fantasy for a few years and revisit the idea.

now that there’s no negative influences left in my life I think with clear eyes I REALLY want to figure out fashion. I want to LOVE my body.

I’m 33 iirc, so a lot of my life was wasted being anxious. I want to be femme so I’m going to do so :3

I have an appointment this december with the transgender health program at a hospital a town over… i’m practically vibrating in place waiting.

Thanks!!! I just got it from the convention i staff for. it was CALLING to me lol

oooh that’s super useful feedback! I think I agree with the ponytail and needing to let the front down a bit. when I do, I often find my hair (bangs? is that the word?) falling into my mouth/glasses or flying sideways. maybe i’m making those bangs too thin/sparse?

I haven’t had a proper hair cut in probably a year or so. is there something I should be doing there? nobody ever really taught me what to do with hair other than buzz cut it all off x3

I love the belt idea actually! would be easy enough to go thrifting and find one I like. My belly isn’t totally gone yet but sooooon!

I’m not wearing lipstick but it’s on my list! i’m worried about having things in/around my eyes. sweating into eyeliner sounds like hell (uninformed guess)

honestly all this is euphoric but also overstimulating in a way. my emotions are buzzing in a way they haven’t in a long time. will post more, but I have a long cooldown period lol

Thank you!

hehe sure :3

I kinda live with my whole social net and get overstimulated easily, so you may see me drop off the radar for days at a time. is that still friends? i assume so? >~<

I really wanted to hear someone other than my support net thinking that <3

also AAAAAAAH i swear it’s not that obvious IRL! (but yes I will clean those stains today. I really want to get my act together!)

I recently cut my parents out of my life after trying one last time to talk to them. I cannot stress enough how hard having no hobbies or interests fucks me up. like I thought I liked pc games, but it turns out i was just using it as an escape.

now that there’s nobody over my shoulder to get angry at me for my preferences I don’t know how to function.

edit: a word >~<

NGL that sounds like a good idea. i’ve got a backpack and stuff for hiking. never got around to it yet but that may be fun!

I have an AI rig at home but that topic gets you tarred and feathered in current year. not the best hobby anyways because it’s a PITA to get performance out of.

honestly thanks, i’m not sure what i’m exactly wanting to hear. pretty sure i’m just up too late and overthinking things.

I have a found family that takes good care of me and i’m already acting as a housewife for everyone here, so all things considered I think i’m privileged. just feeling dumb and overly emotional about it, I blame me being up at 4am posting on lemmy >~>

you have no idea how much that eases my worries. thanks :3

i staff BLFC if that helps, can’t speak to other conventions but i get the feeling most are really friendly spaces! i spent the whole con in femme mode and got a couple looks from normies passing by the casino, but being in the majority made it less of an issue.

also yeah not a suiter or anything, but my new family likes to volunteer there so i help owo

Steam support usually makes exceptions for situations like this.

“They” include a shocking number of good people that are about to experience fascism against their will. Please don’t dance on the grave of victims.

:3

What a telling perspective.

It’s a relevant point if you have seen a cat dead on a roof before. You acting like a cunt is not.

This kind of issue is why pawb.social is not open registration. These low effort trolls cause a lot of problems, and i don’t want my server to be responsible for this crap.

Marriage comes with legal ramifications at this point that in some states civil unions do not provide. The talking points of marriage being a Christian invention are pretty revisionist at at best, but I am willing to believe you are simply uninformed.

Also, early translations of the Bible do not support it being against homosexuality, but rather feminine males who cut their beards. Still pretty bigoted and surrounded by prohibitions of mixed fabrics and shellfish though.

Also, please refrain from using burner accounts and botted upvotes in the future for your concern trolling.

Edit: autocorrect is awful

often it’s that these specific terms are used across a propaganda network and searching them will funnel you down a misinformation pipeline if you don’t know the warning signs.

I’ll be dropping the femme expressions I used to love. It’s not safe, and now I have to “man up” and protect my family as best I can. Fascism is not a working system, and a lot of very good and vulnerable people are going to get targeted by bigots every time our undemocratic assholes need to distract from their failures.

The next four years are going to be hell, and I have no idea what to do.