What trajedy, i hate to see it, i know its happening, and yet i cant help but carry on with my day to day, compelled to work, so i can keep the house and food and safety of myself. Its an immense guilt. Ive thought about quiting my job and liquidating my stocks, and unbanking - starving the economic war machine of at least my self, and put me on a path that only the ones who commit can follow down - but then i thought about the reality of then being homeless, insuranceless, etc in the us, and its ever growing political instability - and i just cant choose that, and its aweful that i have to make that choice at all, and its a trajedy im not selfless enough to meaningfully help beyond just the invisible "thoughts and prayers"
If in 50 years im asked what i was doing during this time, im sure to dissapoint and be viewed as an enabler of these horrors
I dont like how that makes me feel, and i think its important that im uncomfortable, i hope it spurs change in myself - which then hopefully leads to change in the world