I've had a low opinion of myself for as long as i can remember. I've always hated myself and can never feel proud of my achievements no matter how big or small they are; im just "oh i did that: cool!" And be on my way.

How do I see myself as a human being worthy of love instead of a personification of human garbage?

So i admit i should've researched a bit, but i've used a service called redact to delete some old, embarrassing, and political comments.

Saw users use it years ago and thought i'd use it too since deleting each and every comment manually is a pain in the ass.

Just then i receive multiple bans on several different subreddits. Then a site wide ban for "spam".

Decided to delete it.

Weeks later i wanted to create an account again and they just ban every account i make.