So, this is my first job for a well and Pump company, it's a small company, but it's been running 5+ years and is worth over a million, thing is, I'm miserable, this job has had me stressed out so much that I started thinking of switching.

A few months back, in a morning meeting, I can't quite remember the context, but I do remember saying that "this wasn't where I saw myself" which is true, I'm a very techie person doing manual labor, even spent several years in college before getting burnt out doing all the extra shit you need. Thing is my boss latched on to me saying that and kept bringing it up, and recently he wanted me to get a licence with him in public water systems that he would pay for, cool, but I was miserable and didn't want to owe him anything if I left so I said no.

That is when he brought up if I saw this as a career or just a job, now, mind you this is the type of guy that can be spiteful, so I had to make a choice on the spot and either lie to make sure I was still put on jobs or tell the truth and not screw myself out of recommendations, I would like SOMETHING to put on my resume, so I told him it was a job.

Now this morning, I get a text in a group chat that I wasn't needed today, and I kinda felt like he was trying to do the same last week, but me and my coworkers wiggled me out of it each time, I'm sure my coworkers will get me some work, cause they some bros, but it'll be by twisting my bosses arm and if I'm coming in, it'll probably be for necessity.

It hasn't been that much longer of a break for me (4 and a half day weekend), but new years doesn't usually have me going to several dinners like Christmas or Thanksgiving and I actually got some really good rest, but I'm extremely upset at the idea of going back to work, it doesn't help that I don't like my job, but I'm too the point that I want to breakdown and/or quit. I've had similar experiences in school, and I'm curious to see if others have this or just me

I currently have a Intel Core i5-12400F (bought a pre built from Starforge) and am thinking of upgrading to an Intel i9-14900K or KF and I'm wondering what steps I need to take in regards to preparation and during installation

I bought a bit of thermal paste a while back that was a corsair one that I saw in Walmart for cheap, but if I need better I'll get better, I also have a Arctic Freezer 36 Air Cooler

I already know about matrix and revolt, what I have in mind is a bit different, for years now, I've had a private server in discord that is just for storing images, info and other things quickly and easily, it's simple media picker, fast upload, categories/folders via channels and already being an app I had open all the time on all my devices has made it very useful for my needs

But alas, with the enshitification of discord, I need an alternative, so that I can move everything I've stored, before it all goes to shit, ideas?

cross-posted from: https://lemmy.world/post/23918655

Is it cause of coverage, download speeds, was it cheap, did you trust them more, do they have some bonus on top of phone data, or was it just what your family had and you got it too?

Is it cause of coverage, download speeds, was it cheap, did you trust them more, do they have some bonus on top of phone data, or was it just what your family had and you got it too?

There's a bunch of listings like these and I was under the impression gpus went for more, been checking for about a week now and still seeing these, just now started to contact sellers but wanted to get a scoop from a community, I would just trust ebay to get my money back if it's bad but I won't be able to test the card for a while as I kinda want to get the card first and build the pc around it

I'm currently using firefox and thinking of switching, would love some more features and a better aesthetic, but I'm interested in what others are using!

I want to receive calls on my pc and not use phone link, I already use KDE Connect for everything else, calls is the last thing I want

After my post the other day, I made the decision to tell my ex that I couldn't be friends, not with her, or her family, that it would be too painful for me, that I would always be trying to be more than what it could be.

But today my mom came in throwing some curveballs. She says that my ex still loves me. The only reason I'm not disregarding this is because her and my ex were close. My mom misses her, maybe not as much as i, but like I do.

She says I shouldn't give up just yet, and if friends is all we can be then that's fine, but keeps urging me to take her to hangout. A detail I left out is that, the week prior to her telling me that romance wasn't an option, she rested her head on my shoulder, but I can't tell what she's saying by that. She even continued doing it after she told me no romance. Maybe I misunderstood her in that she meant no romance right now, my head is a mess, I thought writing this out would make it make more sense.

I came here first to write but I'm about to go ask some of my friends, so don't worry about me using Lemmy too much

I know that what I'm about to say might be just something that's wrong with me, and I understand that, but here goes.

Back at the end of April, I had my first breakup, she broke it off cause I was being stupid (I'm sure if someone wants to know the story, I have it somewhere in my profile) and I went from blaming myself, to being angry, to numb, to now that she talked to me again a few weeks ago, i feel guilty and just generally, I despise myself (but that's a separate issue and I'm trying to get depression medication) She said she wanted to be friends again cause I'm a "really fun person to hang out with" and for a second I was happy.

Fast forward to a week ago while working with her brother while helping a family friend, he invited me over to their place to swim and I accepted, she wasn't there but I was good friends with her family and I wanted to rekindle that, except the whole time I felt guilty and had panic attacks, but I tried my best to hang out.

Yesterday, at our martial arts class, which is where we see each other each week, I asked if she wanted to hang out, she accepted, but also said that there wasn't a chance at romance. I wasn't trying to consider that again right now, and just wanted to be friends again for the moment, but it's been bothering me.

How can I promise myself that I won't feel pain each time we hang out, that I won't try and be more and end up pushing her away again. How do I keep sane when I know I'm going to be an idiot and try to be close to her again, while also knowing I won't get that.

Maybe it's the depression, I can't really decide on what I want, I don't know where to go.

For me, growing up, I was around people who saw games as useless and a waste of time, but I loved them

I've always been into computers and tech and was called techy and a gamer and each time, it was said with a sort of disgust from the person saying it.

It made me feel like I shouldn't be friends with the few people like me, and I spent a lot of my childhood staying away from people, and making sure that people didn't learn that I played games

Even now, I get slightly uncomfortable being called a gamer or techy or any synonym even though people don't really think that anymore around here.

Anyone else have something similar?

Anyone else feeling super underwhelmed by this thing, like it's from the black wall and almost everything cool about it has major downsides.

What I want is a mod that just makes this thing the endgame monster, something crazy like it has all the perks of the cyberdecks in one, plus make the blackwall gateway not take way too long to upload and not as much ram with a greater spread range.

Another idea I had was while in overclock mode, you wouldn't be able to use weapons, but still have your quickhacks, and instead have the mode from the betray reed path when you are hooked up to Songbird, deleting enemies by pointing your hand at them.

This may be super unbalanced and way too powerful and maybe a couple of buffs is all it needs, but what I want is something that I get at the end of the game, and gives so much power fantasy in the last missions, it feels worth it, especially if you do the "don't fear the reaper" ending.