I cannot function without stress. I don't work better under stress, I can ONLY work if I'm stressed. So all my life I'm rushing and hurrying artificially even if there is no objective reason to do that. This model was working great for me all my life until now when I'm in my twenties and my body is collapsing with GERD, proctological issues, bruxism, headaches, tinnitus, fibromyalgia... They say, "Oh, you just have to do things based on novelty and interes" but bitch you cannot make EVERYTHING interesting and new. When I start to give a fuck about everything and relax I end up doing no shit. And honestly I don't know what to do. The meds they were giving me just cause the same stress artificially elevating my noradrenaline and the evening crush is even worse compared to days when I'm stressing myself on my own means. I feel myself in a "stress yourself out and die or don't do anything and die as well" situation... Psychiatrist and meds, psychologist, supplements, weekly meetings in ADHD support group, physical activity, good sleep, good nutrition, all these ergonomical lifehacks like "pomodoro", "make the task easy", "just divide the task into subtasks", "reward yourself", "body double", "listen to podcasts while cleaning" etc... All this shit is not working. There is no brand new method left that I haven‘t tried and I'm deeply frustrated. I can only stress myself out until my body completely desintegrates. Just venting

1. This isn't a rental car - it's privately owned.

küskinei mäntätöt kömmi, kosti inteimät a

küski-nei mäntä-töt kömmi, kosti intei-mät a

transport-CONJ nearby-time REF.NEG, ASEX DEM-nearby EMO.CNTR

"(This) transport and temporal nearbyness do not relate, someone nearbying this (transport) in fact"

1. Life is meaningless if it begins well but ends badly.

öötista tilämännisin, tottoó män'iütte, ii pökikömmi näiöhta

ööti-sta tilä-männi-sin, totto-ó män-iütte, ii pöki-kömmi näi-öhta

moving-ABST beginning-AMA-TOP, time-CONJ.PSTR liking-OPP, DM heading-PRV sadness-PL

"Speaking of movingness starting good, (if) time passes and (it's) anti-good, so (it‘s) without goal, very sad"

I use gloss abreviations from conworkshop conworkshop.com/grammar_forms.php

I‘m currently working on a clong which puts very little emphasis on the verbs so ultimately the speaker could communicate it‘s ideas just with a help of nouns. I‘ve already developed some interesting constructions/features but would like to look for the new ideas!

Fucking morons. I’ve been looking for a new apartment and messaging a ton of real estate agents lately, and WhatsApp just decided to block me for 'suspicious activity.' They already restricted my account a couple of days ago, and I almost missed an apartment viewing because of it. And I‘ve already done that for three moves before with zero issues. I live in a country where literally all communication with real estate agents happens on WhatsApp, so now I’ll have to go out tomorrow and get a whole new phone number if they don’t unblock me or Im gonna end up on the street. Fucking morons. Fuck you, Crapsapp, and your piece-of-shit messenger