I've found it harder and harder to continue with a day if something doesn't go right.

I just get really sad and shutdown effectively.

Can't play games or watch content (attentively, I can "watch" something but it's not being processed by brain).

Depression certainly doesn't help but it's not totally that.

:(

Ah hell, apparently today is the day when I joined three years ago or something. Fancy.

Just finished my first day of uni. I feel like an old man in my mid 20s among children.

What I learned today in business school:

• We are there to increase profit, the companies bottom line.

• Managers are the most important people n a company.

• Companies are people under the law

• if a child hurt themself, the mother goes to prison for 6 months and the father suffers no consequences, even if the mother is the breadwinner

• anyone under 21 can not Start company but 18 years olds can inhert them

Going to try and go to local appliance store. I'm tired of having health issues. The weird bumps on my wrist that come and go, the bartholin cyst now, whatever is wrong all over with me being exhausted, the general fucking brain fog, blugh blugh.

Struggling to sleep. Earplugs eventually make my ears ring (pushes ear wax into the ear canal?) and with the house beside me being under construction and all the thumps, bumps and Charlie Brown adult voices I can hear through the walls, I almost never get a good sleep.

I want to get professional ear plugs, but that would cost ~$100 which I don't have right now. I need a job but I fuck up the interviews because I'm always tired. Catch-22 of modern living with autism.