I really want a happy ending for the lesbian from Corpse Party

Strong emotions can be as addictive as narcotics.

Millennial af

Me after watching an hour long show about uvalde that I had purposely avoided hearing anything about.

The most genuine, personal emotion is grief. I think for people who understand grief, watching a character depict it in a story is deeply compelling, possibly to an unhealthy degree.

It is functionally impossible to share grief in any meaningful way, even with other people who are grieving for the same thing that you are.

If you could share the deeply personal parts, they would cease to be personal and thus cease to be meaningful.

This doesn't mean that you should camp out on your grief, indulge in it long-term, wallow in it like a pig in mud.

It does mean that you should spend some time thinking about the things that make that feeling of grief so sharp, so personal for you, and treasure them. Only humans can create meaning, can produce it in other things, can extract it out of the mundanity of existence. You did, and you should hold on to the reasons for that, even as you allow the pain of the grief to fade.

DS9 fan, I see.

My blorbos wouldn't be my blorbos without a little bit of life crippling trauma

And then you go online to fandom discussions in order to become even more depressed as you watch people justify and praise the suffering of the characters that don't deserve it.