Or at least I didn't experience any I can remember. There was nothing particularly terrible today, no type-1 diabetes related problems either.

It's not really a sign my transition is going better, it's bad, the same as always, it's just that I've successfully retreated very far away from whatever my real material body is, and it's working because if I didn't do that, then things would be considerably worse. It has gotten better from last year since it's no longer constant suffering beyond my capacity to handle, it's constant suffering that's within my capacity to handle now. I'm handling it.

It was likely eight or seven hours and I actually feel well-rested instead of wanting to die.

I woke up at 6:50 which is before my alarm and had some time to do stuff in the morning. It wasn't stressful like it usually is everyday.

There's so much that's so bad. Oh my god. It's like I OD'd on despair.

This is gonna sound weird but I wish we were depicted with features that make us clockable like a brow ridge or shoulders or a blocky silhouette in art defending us.

Like I've been looking through comics and almost every depiction of a trans woman looks identical to a cis woman... which like, I get why a trans person would be uncomfortable with drawing dysphoric features, but I feel like it dulls the point of the political art.

Defending trans people who pass is easy, like even transphobes can do that, but defending trans people who aren't conventionally attractive and don't pass is much harder. Those are the people who get into confrontations in public bathrooms, and who experience the most hatred and constant micro-aggressions from almost everyone. The stage where you "don't look good" is when you're most vulnerable and is an almost universal experience for all trans women that tends to last much longer if you're underprivileged.

I would just like seeing more stuff that affirms non-passing trans women are still women and that, in general, women don't need to be pretty to deserve respect and basic decency from other people.