You do have a point. Maybe that's why the Door exists: sometimes, humans simply outdo demons.
Yes, I have noticed. One is a conclusion I've come to, the other is...hardwired, I think. That's how it feels anyway.
I was receiving regular therapy until around two months ago. Practitioner said she couldn't help me anymore, gave me a list of others; interacting with new people at all has been near impossible lately, much less rehashing my entire life and situation.
I have the feeling the problem is deeper than psychology: my brain might be physically malfunctioning in some way. I mean, if I'm as self-aware as I am but still can't shift some obviously wrong beliefs, those beliefs must be "bolted down", so to speak. Does that make sense?