That's just kind of how I ended up being with anything competitive honestly, especially if it's a huge time sink, which battle royale games tend to be. Even CSGO's "Danger Zone" mode can take like half an hour with just 18 people.
I've found myself missing some of the older shooters I played as a teen like Black Ops II, MW2, Battlefield 3, etc. They're still "competitive" in a sense, but you're not playing for nearly as much as you are in Apex Legends or Fortnite. Plus the matches aren't overly long and you can rejoin the action in seconds depending on the mode. And if you leave a deathmatch, you aren't really losing a whole lot of progress. Pretty much 5 - 10 minutes worth as opposed to 30 minutes to an hour sometimes.