You seem to be handling this in a really caustic way. Maybe take some time to self-reflect and come back in two weeks? You may be able to get unbanned if you chill a bit.

Philosophically, I think the pursuit of truth and the exercise of compassion are worthwhile endeavors.

But when that's too abstract, I remind myself that I have people who rely on me and benefit from my presence in their life. I work to make the world around me better than it was before, so that others can immediately, and in the future, have better lives.

I'm also using Syncthing to sync up my notes between my laptop and phone. It's been great! Less Google doc use.