AHHHH, I'm so sorry. Thank you though. As I'm aware, puberty lasts around 10 years and yeah... I'm definitely impatient about it sometimes. In all honesty I do think I have a decent chance at passing - its just that friends don't really know like... Anything about this stuff... I'm one of the only trans people they know at all, if they know any, and even if they do I'm the one they're closer to so in the one who gets fielded questions I don't always have answers to despite really wanting them if that makes sense. I really appreciate your kindness.

1. 1.5mls SubQ weekly and one 0.5MG pill of dutasteride per night.
2. Whatsawhawha?
3. I've noticed very little since starting estrogen. Body mass redistribution is noticeable in my figure. I grew boobs pretty fast, but that slowed quick too and I am ultimately still pretty flat. Noticeable decrease in muscle mass. Body hair slightly thinner. The world appears visually more saturated... Can't tell if that's placebo, but it never went away and was pretty instant.
4. Yes, truth serum is alcohol, and I don't tend to drink often but sometimes when I do I can overdo it which is a problem, yeaaah. Trying to be better any time I do, and have been successful generally. I appreciate the concern but no need to worry.
5. Super hard to tell. Yes and no? Everyone in my life is suuuuper busy, and I usually get to talk to any one person once a week or so. Those that aren't are the sort that are supportive, kind, and willing to learn, but don't know much and so I can't really go to in any sense other than occassional vent-space. I don't like venting to people too much either, which ultimately leads to bottling up and then... Well... The occasional vent anyways... Which I like even less. I do have matrix, and would absolutely appreciate any extra support I'd you're willing to give any.

Also, don't worry about asking questions, I'm a pretty open book and you're offering support. Thank you. <3

I started on my 23rd! Thank you for the kind words. Yeah, the "give it a year" thing is what I keep telling myself. Paranoia and impatience have me in an occasional spiral like the above... Sorry about that. Trying to workaround it best I can in the meantime by learning better fashion, but I gotta say I don't think everything I'm trying is working and I definitely don't have funds to throw at a wall figuring it out right now. I'm lost.

I'd love to chat! <3

Omfg I wish. 23, Barely 3 months into estrogen... Only maybe a month into deutasteride... And well I don't exactly pass. At least YET... I think I can one day I can but am really really uncertain about now or how. I don't see "passing" as a requirement but when it FEELS possible... Well... Yknow... Hard to get my mind off of. I get those looks in my redneck-ass hometown if you get my meaning, but I still feel like I'm just passing as "gay"... I reaaaally don't know where I'm at and am... Ugh. Def somewhere between " gay" and just "emo" I think? Hard to tell alone.

Okay, tbh idk. If anyone active in this community is willing to DM and help or someone know what/where is a good place I should post, it's much appreciated - been lurking for years now - y'all are the most welcoming community ever, and have me hopeful enough I've switched my lemmy instance... Feeling like this might be opportune time?

Note: this post (comment... I'm so sorry...) probably looks a lot more spiral-ey than intended upon rereading it... Sending it as is because I still honestly have no idea how to word this better... Thanks to anyone who tolerates this, you're the best, really. Might delete soon for sake of others if I'm a total idiot... May have a bit of truth serum flowing through me rn if you catch my drift...

Edit: ......yes... "Truth serum" is alcohol. And uh... Definitely too much last night. Apologies for the vent.

Your bookmarks must be very interesting... Mind sharing for those of us that are absolute reading whores? (´･ω･`)

Her ghost half looks fiiiine. Look at that smile. Cutie is totally unfazed, lol.