Yeah, I figured that by trying to avoid it via VPN and other accounts/devices. Insane.

Yeah sounds good. It always gets messy when I try to force myself into something

Sorry for late reply. I get "banned" banned, not even just suspended. So I guess that's finale

Notes application on steroids, 99.99% of time functionality other than that is a timewaste, like building those Zettelkasten kind of things, its just stacking things on top of each other to forget about them

What helps me with toxic shame is seeing that the world, although it has bad and negative and evil sides to it, is beautiful on itself, by default. There is no need to prove that, because it becomes so apparent when you let go of toxic shame. So if you keep a good image of the world in your head, if you preserve that, then you're good by default too, and as much as you think there's reasons for you to think badly about yourself, there are also those things that are there to think nicely

There's so many things to get hooked to other than cigarettes. Or maybe not so many, but for me at least that's nice food, sometimes sugar, coffee, tea that I like or any other activity not related to ingesting something, maybe writing, reading, whatever. I feel like this kind of addiction is not worth it however beneficial it might seem at first

Do you feel like you're absorbing stuff? I mean, stuff like podcasts, sure, but anything other than a fun chatter, like an audiobook, is completely lost on me. I thought away too easily