Yeah, I usually sleep for 11 hours unless I'm disturbed.

I used to sleep a lot, like 12-14 hours. Everytime I went to sleep, I hoped that I would never wake up. Therapy made so much difference, really. Depression gone, suicidal thoughts gone. After 17 years, I started socializing and honestly, I made some amazing friends.

I wish I could sleep all day. I kind of have the opposite problem unfortunately.

I mean one reason im trying to follow up on psychological issues like depression is because im sleeping so much.

I've been sleeping an enormous amount recently.

I've got these periods of joy which seem tempered by sadness; it feels like living with a boat anchor tied to your chest or lower back, not a physical sensation of imprisonment, but everything is difficult, heavy, laborious, and you're always exhausted to do even basic things because of the 900 kg anchor designed to hold boats in place attached to an ordinary human emotional frame.

I've resorted to "non-zero-days", trying to get some joy from one administrative task per day at minimum, with everything else being extra credit and looking forward to basic things. (I.e: An 8-hour shift, and chilli with cheese being the highlight of the day).

Intense physical exercise is the other time that I truly feel "normal". Endorphins and a sense of ephemeral accomplishment from high intensity interval training; though getting dressed and out of the house to weather the elements while depressed in-of-itself takes like an hour, maybe two if it's really bad.

Not here to vent, I'm genuinely upset by getting 8 out of 9 of the symptoms for depression. I'm in denial about it, and I've just been muddling through life asking other people:

"You guys notice how some days have far more saturated colors than others? What do you think causes that?"

You're not alone 🙃