I'm trans femme, considering hrt. By a long way, most reports of what it's like say: within the first week I felt different emotionally /in my mind. Feelings seem to vary from calmer, to the author feeling more herself. This initial euphoric feeling is reported to fade over time, usually.

I just wondered how it would feel for a cis man if he were to take it for a week. I understand that if you stopped after a week there would not be any long term effects at all. So I'd be surprised if it hadn't been tried!

Why do I wonder this? I suppose I'm wondering if it feels good for everyone. I'm scared of taking it. But I'm scared of living with the constant doubt. Most gender affirming actions I've taken have been very helpful, really made me feel more myself. But if hrt makes everyone feel better, at least at first, I wouldn't be able to know whether it would be right for me by trialling it (and thereby judge whether it might be worth all the downsides that come along with the positives or not).

Any experience shared is v welcome!

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Edit: Thanks everyone for interesting info! I wanted to add here at top that in no way am I saying a person's reaction to hormones has any effect on their gender. I'm not looking to "test" my trans-ness by trying hrt. Just interested to learn more about the range of responses. Many thanks all 🙂

Silent notifications are annoying me, they put up icons by the clock and make me think I have something to notice but it's just a service.

E.g. ntfy

If I go to app management screen I can disable notifications but I'm unclear if that means the background service doesn't run as it should - I'm sure I've seen something about that somewhere.

I'm on android 15. Thanks in advance!

I noticed that if you have too few pm_children set then some requests hang until timeout. This surprised me - I'd expect an immediate error, but it's more like a tarpit! For ages I was thinking my server was not performant, then I noticed via top that it wasn't doing or waiting while the browser was.

I have two questions:

1. If you have pm_max_children=1 and you occupy that and submit another request, what actually happens? (I'm proxying through nginx.) HTTP doesn't have a "40_ Come back later".

2. (if life deals you lemons...) if you can generate a tarpit that doesn't use server resources, this could be quite useful to know about too!

A personal take on how I experience gender.

EDIT - more context would have helped as

I'm not trying to propose some simplified mathematical fits all graph here.

I'm struggling, having been out as non binary for about 5 years, with the idea that trans woman might be a better introductory starting point label for me. I understand gender as complex - far more complex than a 2 line graph sketch - but drew the graph to hone in on MY experience with fluidity. I was interested in my strength/clarity of feeling at different points.