@dandelion I guess one misconception I had before transition was that I thought you needed to know you wanted to be a different gender early on as a child. The thing is when I was a child I never even put any thought to what I wanted to be or what I looked like. When people told me I was a boy I believed them because what do I know. I might as well have been a pair of floating eyeballs because I had no sense of my body. Only when puberty hit did it occur to me that I would rather be female because of the changes to my body and sexuality.

The misconception I mentioned was something I used as an argument why I could not be trans, ignoring that there were still signs when I was a child, just not obvious ones. I think I used it as a coping mechanism since transition seemed so far out of reach in my early adulthood.

@phr @Duke_Nukem_1990 Fucking mood. Don't get me wrong: I still enjoy my alone time. But I also enjoy being around people who I like, whereas before it was more of a challenge to even meet someone without it feeling like a burden.

@irotsoma @quietlavender Huh, interesting. That seems pretty close to what I'm experiencing for myself. I don't consider myself agender, but I feel pretty ambivalent towards gender. I might as well be a genderless entity for all I care. Gender presentation is a thing that I struggle with a lot, be it being masculine or being feminine, but your reasons for presenting feminine makes sense to me and I can see that for myself too. And yeah, physically I want to be a woman. It just feels more right. So, thanks for your post I guess. It kind of helped me think about my relationship to my gender and eased some of my insecurities I've had over it.

TLDR Gender is hard.

@cows_are_underrated Cannot really say that I had one of those, but I also cannot really say that I care about having them. I kind of like my relatively low libido right now.