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PeelerSheila
aussie.zone

WARNING: SELF PITYING DEPRESSIVE RAMBLING

Thankyou to those who've asked after me, I truly appreciate it! Life's been a bit meh for me lately. I'm still trying to exercise but this last couple of weeks I seem to be skipping every second day. After my birthday I got a bit depressed and annoyed with life. Every year, ever birthday reminds me of how I've got less and less time left with my kids, and worrying if I'm giving them all the life skills they'll need. I'm working so hard and trying to be frugal without being stingy and lecturing everyone in the house about wasting things. I've been a real killjoy lately. I'm tired a lot of the time, and apart from commenting on the odd post here and there I've refrained from posting daily because mood, menopause, money, and disappointment at myself for failing to exercise daily as I intended. I figured everyone's going through similar stuff (except maybe the menopause!) so what I'm feeling isn't special so I haven't talked about it. It's been hard to find joy in life at times. I also need to seriously declutter the flat, which I've attempted a few times over the last couple of weeks but when I get home it all seems to be still there, plus some more. It just seems to be such an effort to be positive in my life and inspiring for my kids. Christmas is coming, I have an unpaid fortnight off over Christmas & New Year (yay casual work), Elder Minipeeler is attending high school for the first time next year and there are expenses with that.. I just don't know how I'm going to manage it all, everything is getting so expensive. I'm really worried and burying myself in work and getting sick of saying "No we can't do X on the weekend because I'm worried that if I spend $ on that I won't have money for the other things." Mr Peeler is focused on trying to get his disability pension and little else. I guess I have to make more of an effort to appreciate the good things, even though the good things in life don't seem to outweigh the negatives right now. I occasionally just get sick of having to make the effort and having to force myself to be positive; when it doesn't come naturally and everything gets me down it's just a pain in the arse, and so am I. Why does it take so much effort? Keep trying woman! 💪 Thankyou for bearing with me, grumpy old grizzly bear that I am.

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melbaboutownreply
aussie.zone

That’s completely understandable. From what it sounds like you’re the breadwinner (or bringing in a substantial portion of the income) while also having to be in charge of the budget and act as the bad guy in denying non-essentials. Plus doing the lions share of the housework and childcare, and caring for your husband.

With what time and energy are you supposed to exercise daily into a bikini body? You’re carrying your entire family on your back.

Whenever you feel guilt or think you’re being grumpy Google ‘the mental load’ and ‘the second shift’

Edit: also ‘the triple burden’. Though it’s more even than that

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PeelerSheilareply
aussie.zone

Thankyou for this.. I read your insightful reply earlier this morning and got stuck into the preview of 'the second shift' before I got up. It is a hugely relatable text! Also 'the mental load,' so many "OMG yessss!" moments.

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CEOofmyhouse56reply
aussie.zone

Not much I can say to make you feel better but I will say, from what you've written in the past, you are raising some incredible mini peelers.

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Gibsonisafluffybutt
aussie.zone

Heading out for the first time since lockdown pretty much. Nervous but the long island ice teas will help lol

Have a great night everyone 🙂

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Bottom_racer
aussie.zone

Just got back from the IGA..

7 dollars for a 10g pack of kaffir lime leaves.

Suffice it to say the green thai curry tonight will be a bit more bland than usual.

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PeelerSheila
aussie.zone

I've been going to the butcher after I got disenchanted with the quality of colesworth meat for the prices they charge, so I thought initially "the butcher might be pricier, but there'll be better quality and less reason for (former chef of 40 years) Mr Peeler to whinge." Today I got 2 generous kg of beef mince, 2kg of good sized chicken wings, 2kg of good sized drumsticks, 4 large chicken breasts and a couple of enormous and beautiful looking thick rump steaks (one steak will almost feed the 4 of us) for a little over $70. This will feed us for almost a fortnight. I'm glad the kids love chicken! The flavour of meat from a butcher is beyond compare; I hadn't done it for ages, since the last butcher in my area closed (there used to be 3!) and the first time I did it again recently the family unanimously agreed that this is the way forward from now on, it is noticeably different. The Minipeelers wanted to come along. I said seriously? To the butcher? I hated all the bits of bodies and the weird smell when I was a kid, but I loved the fake grass the shop had in the window and the paintings on the window of a smiling cow. They weren't phased by it at all, and of course influenced the purchasing!

I also decided to order a Funky Food fruit and veg box (thanks to Melbaboutown for posting about it). I got a $50 box which is approximately enough to feed 4-5 people for a week, and I'm looking forward to my Wednesday delivery!

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Rusty Raven
aussie.zone

Another disliked chore off the to-do list: I got out with the pole saw and cut back the overhanging branches from the neighbours' yards. Chomp and I will deal with the offcuts once they have dried off a bit.

Hopefully I've cleared enough to get sufficient sun through to the garden bed I will be planting the citrus in.

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bull⚡
aussie.zone

Putting this shit on garlic bread is completely unnecessary (I'd taken it off and put it aside before the photo)

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PeelerSheilareply
aussie.zone

I agree! I especially objected to the trend from a few years ago when they would put a gigantic handful of rocket on top of a cooked pizza. Why?

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CEOofmyhouse56
aussie.zone

Unpopular and controversial opinion, I love watching the horse racing. Such majestic, intelligent, powerful creatures that love to run. The downside to that is the whipping. The quicker that is outlawed, the better.

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Thornburywitchreply
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Yup. They do love to run. And jump. Rant incoming.

::: spoiler spoiler I have no quarrel with horse racing even jumps racing when done properly, and I used to work in the industry so have some qualifications to speak. I don't actually object to the whipping - it's largely done at the insistence of the punters so they feel that "their" horse & jockey is not being lazy when they lose. If you banned whips at the races, the punters would rise up and slay you. Most decent trainers would happily dispense with the whips as not being necessary. A lot of jocks will wave the whip around but not actually touch the horse. Mind you, there are horses that will hang back and slouch along until the jockey tells them to smarten up and get cracking. Usually using the whip. Depends on the individual horse.
What I really really object to is 2 year old racing. Horse child abuse for profit. But horse racing is a game for those with short attention spans, so the sooner those nags start earning back their sale price as yearlings, the better. Pun intended.
To me, it's like watching 10 year old kids competing at the Olympics. No chance of having a childhood or much in the way of education, and very little chance of a happy adult life due to crippling overuse injuries and mental disfunction due to a thoroughly unnatural lifestyle during their growing years. A horse is roughly 5-7 years old before they are fully adult depending on breed. A 2 year old thoroughbred still has very flexible and easily damaged or distorted bones, and racing sets them up for a lifetime of pain. Lifetime being up to 25-30 years.
Most will go for dogfood after not winning. The really tough ones that had the luck to get a decent trainer may continue on as racers in subsequent years. So many wasted horses that could have been good but got trashed by human greed.
:::

Rant over - but this topic punched a few buttons.

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Mittens_meowreply
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I hate it. People in the industry defend the welfare of the horses, but money changes everything for the worse. And the racing of undeveloped baby horses is awful, like you’ve said. But there’s no reason for the stakeholders to want to extend the horses longevity - it’s purely about money.

I have had horses for 20+ years, I cannot get behind the racing industry. There should just be virtual horse racing (just like virtual poker machines) - still get the money and no horses suffer. Same with greyhounds.

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PeelerSheilareply
aussie.zone

I like looking at the horses themselves, so magnificently shiny and powerful. Even though I'm actually pretty scared of horses (anything that can kill you with a kick or by falling on you I tend to stay well clear of!).

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CEOofmyhouse56reply
aussie.zone

I love the camera shot of the horses bums when they come out of the barriers.

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Force_majeure122reply
aussie.zone

I like when the horsies are all chill and cruising up until the end and then one of em just goes zooooom

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CEOofmyhouse56reply
aussie.zone

I like it when a horse is at the back of the pack, comes from the outside and romps it home.

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Rusty Raven
aussie.zone

Mmmm

::: spoiler Toastie

Three cheeses, pickled zucchini & capsicum, semi-dried cherry tomatoes and salami.

:::

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oztrin
aussie.zone

Updating my profile on LinkedIn from when I was transitioning from one career to another and in and out of roles.
Never has the saying about "My resume is basically a list of things I hate to do" been so apt. Ugh.

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calhoon2005
aussie.zone

6.5k run with the doggo on the beach this morning - no incidents. Very worth the effort coming down last night after work and school etc

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PeelerSheilareply
aussie.zone

I admire people who can "go for a run." I run like someone wearing an oversized inflatable dinosaur costume.

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calhoon2005reply
aussie.zone

... I've been running every few days for the last three months. My knees have only stopped aching in the last 3 weeks I think. I'm starting to see some changes to my weight, so that's motivating me when I'm lying in bed in the morning trying to get myself to go for a run. Running with the doggo has helped a lot, it's good to have a buddy to talk to as I struggle and say things like, I'm gonna have to walk for 5 minutes alright.... I catch myself in a reflection occasionally, I run like someone who looks like their back is really stiff, and someone whose body temperature is maxing out....

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SituationCake
aussie.zone

Last night I must have slept in a funny position, woke up with a numb arm. The prickly feeling when the feeling came back was intense. Ouch. Then was awake for an hour after that because couldn’t get back to sleep. Yay for long weekend!

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Rusty Raven
aussie.zone

I have now mixed and packed up a batch of dog food, so Mr Woof is sorted for the next couple of months. It's a tedious job and I'm glad I don't need to do it more often.

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Seagoon_reply
aussie.zone

I used to mix up the cat kibble. Cats would sort it out with their tongue and only eat their favourite.

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Rusty Ravenreply
aussie.zone

This is mostly mushy stuff, but if any kidney beans make it through whole he will pick those out. I have to make sure I squash any before serving.

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bull⚡
aussie.zone

Had a great sleep, woke up to blue skies, now looking at this magnificent beast while I have my eggs benny & iced coffee in this cafe's alfresco 😎👌

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bull⚡
aussie.zone

$2 mystery bets at the RSL is a fun way to pass the time. I have not come close to winning one yet though it's totally rigged lol

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Seagoon_
aussie.zone

It smells so lovely outside in the night air, like sweet spring flowers and fresh new leaves. The sunset was lovely too, just a hint of that purple now, volcano sunsets are nearly over.

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MeanElevatorreply
aussie.zone

I'm getting hammered with my cool neighbours.

No noticeable noises detected citizen. All is well.

Hail Satan

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bananafungus
aussie.zone

Errands run for the weekend, now to bunker down with some pjs and games because next weekend is going to be huge.

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Rusty Raven
aussie.zone

Today I havested both the first strawberry and raspberry of the season from my garden. There are many more raspberries to follow shortly, but more strawberries will be a bit of a wait.

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Bacon
aussie.zone

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Gibsonisafluffybutt
aussie.zone

Pretty good night. Turns out my tolerance to booze is higher than I thought.

Goodnight everyone ❤️

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MeanElevatorreply
aussie.zone

Goodnight homey. Make sure to drink plenty of water and have some Panadol/Nurofen/aspirin handy when you wake up.

All the best.

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oztrin
aussie.zone

Did a quick dash out for makeup for The Interview as I haven't worn any since the second lockdown, and consequentially all I had has been tossed.
Have also spent the last hour and a half typing up interview (likely) questions and answers, including the ones I thought of last night and typed into a Google Doc on my phone. So I feel a bit more prepared for interviews than I used to be! (And I did fairly well on the screening one on the phone, especially since they were initially asking me about a higher position than I'd applied for or expected to fill, ha.)

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Duenan
aussie.zone

We better not lose to England tonight.

In other news still feeling crap, runny nose and coughing up a lot of junk. Also lightheaded today snd off balance but more because of head congestion.

I need good comfort food.

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CEOofmyhouse56reply
aussie.zone

I know right. If we lose this we will be a laughing stock. Also someone needs to knock India down. That will most likely be SA. Can't have the home team winning.

Hang in there buddy. This covid shit does get better.

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Duenanreply
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Yeah. I know England have been terrible but never underestimate a good rivalry to spark up things for better or for worse.

When does SA play against India?

It’s lasted longer thought though it does give me more time off from work. I’m just glad I’m over the worst of it and still retain my sense of taste and smell.

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Seagoon_
aussie.zone

mask sewing continues . More than half way done now. I'll post pics later, they are so cute.

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CEOofmyhouse56
aussie.zone

I have got stuff to do today people but all I've managed so far is a ham and cheese croissant and a large cappuccino and I'm already tired.

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underwatermagpiesreply
aussie.zone

Those sound like excellent things you've already done. Maybe you need to add in a nap near the top of your to-do list.

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Rusty Raven
aussie.zone

I had thought my induction hotplates timer function was a bit pointless, but have just realised it is perfect to use with the pressure cooker.

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fullkitwanker
aussie.zone

just finished watching I, Daniel Blake. What an infuriating and depressing movie. Right in the feels, it was a really hard watch.

I was thinking, I have so much free time on the weekends / post work and I don't do much anyway - what are some ways I can volunteer? Can I volunteer at a food bank? Any other recommendations?

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PeelerSheilareply
aussie.zone

I fear for my algorithm. What have I done?! I am however an absolute sucker for a woman with a power tool, reminded me of the Grinder Girl from Letterman's show.

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CEOofmyhouse56reply
aussie.zone

I think what's happened here is Bibi's parents are loaded and despite the fact that Bibi failed talent school mum and dad paid for a day session in a studio so Bibi can have a great birthday.

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