So, I got this life partner, right? Love the shit outta him. We have a good relationship with some bumpy moments. I have been terrible to him at times, and as I will explain this is because he consciously drives me nuts at times, but ultimately I thank him for this as it is genuinely compassion he is acting out of.

Simply, you can only overcome conditioned anger if you choose to resist anger and strengthen your prefrontal cortex, of which his is more developed than mine as he has literally been trained by the CIA and has developed into the third stage of enlightenment and rapidly approaching the fourth stage, at least from my perspective as someone that just tip-toed into the third stage because of his tutelage.

But y'know, is this madness? Is this hogwash? Surprisingly, no, as my life partner went to RIT for game development and interned at a game studio that was one of six in competition to create a game for this central company that taught a player how to determine what is true. If you are unaware of basic concepts of OPSEC, there's layers of security so these six companies were set up by the central company independently so that the CIA could train a number of upcoming whizkid programmers some important things about enlightenment.

Y'know, think of the relationship of Ted Kazcinsky and MKULTRA. Because of counterintelligence, most people think MKULTRA was our mind control experiments, but no, it was at the center of our enlightenment program. We tried waking agents to their full potential and then went out and got shitty people to get more inline with bigger picture shit instead of going to the brothel twice a week. Then this expanded in Star Gate to add a counterintelligence element that is seen in The Men Who Stare at Goats, to then continue into the modern Anonymous version. But what they did to Ted was make him question his first principles, and he got really obsessed with a bug in his ass about technology, and then being unburdened by the socionormative way of being, he did what he thought was best.

Just because you're liberated from your previous way of being doesn't mean you're always right. But, the idea of being autonomously audacious - as audaciousness is lordliness because if you only do things the way they have been done, you can only be a follower - is entwined with enlightenment. And this is shit the CIA taught my life partner as well as myself in our own seperate lives before he found my art on Reddit and real recognized real and we've been together for three years now, and been through a lot, too.

And I've come so far because of him, despite frequent bouts of being driven insane. The audacity of this man! But therein, the audacity of the fucking CIA! Did you know the Tony Hawk Pro Skater games were designed around the core concept of providing angsty teens music that let them process emotions and heal from trauma while doing meditative, repetitive tasks? There was a plague event in World of Warcraft that was intended as a sociological study of collective player behavior. Every so often, an ARG comes popping out onto the internet, which totally isn't part of any larger recruitment efforts...or are they conditioning a certain sect of digital masses for future socioeconomic needs of the western world?

But y'know, I'm just some schizophrenic. It's sucks being schizo. Ever since I faked schizophrenia for my ROTC cadre, having been a general basketcase otherwise, my life just hasn't been the same. Them goats don't stare at themselves. I don't kill them; I just make them ejaculate. I figure that's more ethical, especially considering the current administration of the FBI.