(Warning!: This post is long but it is necessary, so my advice is to save the rest of the rest of the paragraphs for later and then continue where you once left off by copy pasting them into a document. However, there is also a TL;DR version below.)

To start off, this message is to:

TheInvertedShadow

MikotoNui

TurkishPhantom

PJ-6

HatSamPixie

ChoEv

DoctorVK

ManofMercy

WinterDragonGod

CystalKnight427

RegnumAngelorum371

CajunLooney

WitchyGmod

DaniVader97

This is not intended to be written out of hatred, nor in a desire to condemn, but in the hope of healing, reflection, and restoration. It comes from a place of spiritual self-examination, personal growth, and a renewed understanding of what Christ calls us to do when confronted with wrongdoing - both in others and in ourselves. I want to make this clear from the beginning: this is not an attack. It is a difficult but sincere appeal grounded in Christian faith, moral accountability, and the belief that no one is beyond redemption if they are willing to look inward. I want this message to be shared to the people in this list in order to not only make them aware, but to inspire and save them spiritually.

One of the hardest lessons I have had to learn - very recently when I was seeing my psychiatrist about my confrontational behaviour and anger, and not without pain - is that... hatred and grudges do not merely harm the person they are aimed at. They poison the heart of the one who carries them.

Christ was explicit about this truth:

"For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins." (Matthew 6:14–15)

This is not a comfortable teaching. It is not optional. It is a warning. Harbouring resentment feels justified in the moment, especially when harm feels real and unresolved. But spiritually, it corrodes compassion, clouds judgement, and hardens you up as a Soul. Forgiveness, is not the same as excusing behaviour, nor does it mean forgetting wrongdoing itself. It means refusing to let bitterness rule the heart.

Another sobering reminder comes from Christ Himself:

"Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgement you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you." (Matthew 7:1–2)

This does not mean moral blindness. It means moral humility. A crucial revelation I came to recognise - during a deeply personal moment of reflection with my psychiatrist and my mother - is this:

It is far better to try to heal, restore, and lift someone from disgrace before resorting to confrontation. And confrontation itself, should come long before hatred ever does.

Hatred must be last - if it comes at all. Preferably, it should NEVER come.

Scripture teaches:

"If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone." (Romans 12:18)

Peace is not weakness. It is discipline. It is strength under restraint. Christian teaching does not ask us to affirm harmful behaviour. It asks us to distinguish between the person and their actions.

"Hate what is evil; cling to what is good." (Romans 12:9)

This means rejecting bad behaviour, destructive attitudes, and sinful conduct - while still recognising the inherent worth of the individual as a mortal sapien made in the image of God. This is particularly relevant when addressing controversial or divisive conduct. There are statements and attitudes you have expressed in the past that I - and many others - have found deeply troubling. This includes remarks that came across as sexist, dismissive, or unnecessarily inflammatory, such as the repeated and careless use of terms like "Mary Sue" in ways that felt more like contempt than critique.

Likewise, your expressed hostility toward children, and what appears to be misopedistic sentiment, raises serious moral concerns. Plus, being a misopedist whilst confronting child predators, is the equivalent of a savage Mongoose violently killing a Snake, and that says a lot on how problematic that is and ultimately feels. Wisdom teaches us, that what defines a person is not what they represent outwardly, but their inner character:

"But the LORD said to Samuel, 'Do not consider his appearance or his height... The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.'" (1 Samuel 16:7)

Children are not moral failures. They are Human beings in development - shaped by environment, guidance, and care. To hold contempt for them is not strength; it is a failure of empathy.

The Christian approach is not to hate people for their flaws, but to challenge the flaws while still recognising dignity. There are other actions and decisions you have made that I personally find unconscionable. They deserve scrutiny. They deserve accountability. But accountability does not require cruelty. Christ Himself confronted wrongdoing firmly, yet never stripped people of their mortal and sapient existence. Even when addressing grievous sin, He offered a path forward:

"Neither do I condemn you. Go now and leave your life of sin." (John 8:11)

That is correction paired with mercy. Christian faith demands something uncomfortable from all of us: the willingness to confront our own sins before obsessing over the sins of others.

"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?" (Matthew 7:3)

Self-examination is not humiliation - it is purification. None of us are exempt. Not you. Not me. Not anyone. This message is not written to shame you, nor to destroy your reputation, nor to invite retaliation. It is written because spiritual decay - unchecked - harms everyone involved. Forgiveness frees the forgiver. Letting go of hatred heals you as a Spirit. Confronting oneself is the first step toward genuine change.

"Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew the righteousness within me." (Psalm 51:10)

If there is one thing I have learned, it is this: hatred is spiritually damaging, bitterness poisons discernment, and grace - though difficult - is the only path that leads anywhere worth going.

This message stands as an invitation, not a verdict.

"For everyone who does evil hates the light, and does not come to the light, so that his deeds will not be exposed." (John 3:20)

Chris Roche is admittedly adamant to have almost no one to scan over his reputation and not face the gravity of his actions and words, and how detrimental it all looks for both the Gmod and SFM communities as a whole.

"But speaking the truth in love, we are to grow up in all aspects into Him who is the head, even Christ." (Ephesians 4:15)

I am not claiming to be the one who is right, all I am doing, is speaking the truth about what he is doing and saying, as well as the overall message he is sending out, which is deeply problematic.

"They plot injustice and say, 'We have devised a perfect plan!' Surely the Human mind and heart are cunning." (Psalm 64:6)

Given my own observations, the whole reason Chris wants you guys to not listen to me, as well as block and ignore me, is that he does not want any of you to read the whole post I’ve made here, and does not want you to hear me out.

"A false witness will not go unpunished, and whoever pours out lies will not go free." (Proverbs 19:5)

"Do not testify against your neighbour without cause - would you use your lips to mislead?" (Proverbs 24:28)

For the record, Chris Roche/TheInvertedShadow, had went on record to distort and manipulate what I myself had said to suit his own personal narrative, saying that "him hating/disliking children is what makes himself, tantamount to being a pedophile." Which is categorically false and a gross oversimplification. What I actually said on record, is that "misopedists are no better than child predators, despite the fact they aren’t one in the same." The story behind that - which Shadow does not want any of you to look deep into (and in which he is too uncomfortable to show the whole picture of) is that bigots in general - including misopedists, should NOT be given the right to have noble goals in protecting the same group of people they themselves happen to despise. It is obscene, and it makes an absolute mockery of being a protective person holding up a good cause against a group of criminals. that’s the point I am trying to make all this time.

"Do not spread false reports. Do not help a wicked person by being a malicious witness." (Exodus 23:1)

So please, to everyone reading this - and to also an extent towards Shadow's followers, is do not tell me that what Shadow said is pin point factual, because it’s not, and it will be a grave mistake to promote that lie. They are oversimplifying what I am saying in order to fit their personal narrative, regardless of accuracy and legitimacy.

"A lying tongue hates those it hurts, and a flattering mouth works ruin." (Proverbs 26:28)

I don't think Shadow does really cares about being right or wrong, or even being truthful or dishonest. All he really cares about, is that he wants to make sure that his circle of followers take him at his word, and manipulate what others say against him to suit his own agenda. And that's... just wrong.

"Whoever conceals hatred with lying lips and spreads slander is a fool." (Proverbs 10:18)

"When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom." (Proverbs 11:2)

If Shadow is wise and responsible, then he would’ve kept his bigotry (misopedism in this case) to himself, even though it taints his very heart from within.

"Woe to those who call evil good and good evil, who put darkness for light and light for darkness." (Isaiah 5:20)

And case in point; what he has done is not expressing opinion - it is normalising bigotry, and as well as normalising it when advocating against child predators. Again, it's just wrong.

Ultimately... hating children is wrong, and as far as wisdom goes, it doesn’t matter if one is a kid or not, and according to one of the scriptures I shared before, is that what matters, is what’s on the inside, i.e personality and behaviour. Being a kid is totally IRRELEVANT. I may dislike the sort of kids that commit crimes and make others lives miserable, that is clear, but in the end, I respect the ones that are good and well mannered, to even those, who have a history of helping others and doing stuff for charity, to even taking risks in order to help others.

"For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools." (Romans 1:21-22)

And people like Shadow, are too short-sighted to see that. And wilful ignorance is not even a good thing, which by nature, also leads to bigotry. Ignorance is not strength, it is obnoxious weakness.

"Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites!... you have neglected the more important matters of the law - justice, mercy and faithfulness." (Matthew 23:23)

"If I speak in the tongues of men or of Angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal." (1 Corinthians 13:1)

And besides, saying all that vitriol whilst being in the context of vocally speaking out against predators like Tyler, is an utter abomination and mockery of protecting children.

"Whoever welcomes one of these little children in my name welcomes me; and whoever causes one of these little ones - those who believe in me - to stumble, it would be better for them if a large millstone were hung around their neck and they were thrown into the sea." (Mark 9:37, 42)

Just imagine being a parent for a moment; if a child victim has been molested/raped/sexually harassed before, yet you hear someone like Chris of all people, making such hurtful comments, then you'd feel insulted, hurt, and have the salt rubbed into the wound wouldn't you?

"You shall not steal." (Exodus 20:15)

"Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much." (Luke 16:10)

What also crosses a line, is stealing OCs in a reckless attempt to piss off Tyler Wilson. OC theft cannot be normalised, and keeping up this mindless vendetta is only going to make this mind set of Shadow's, as well as this situation far worse than it already has been.

"Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone." (Romans 12:17)

"Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: 'It is mine to avenge; I will repay,' says the Lord." (Romans 12:19)

I am not saying any of this to defend Tyler, because I will get onto that in a moment, but as far as I remember, Shadow is adamant against all those stealing his stuff and not bothering him, but for some reason, Chris finds it 100% okay for himself to do it.

"So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets." (Matthew 7:12)

"You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgement on someone else, for at whatever point you judge another, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgement do the same things." (Romans 2:1)

What that tells me, is that he is extremely inconsistent and is willing to take extreme risks like stealing characters and so on. That's not a good message to send, and all that does is scream out double standards and double hypocrisy, given he also hates hypocrisy, yet he committed it himself.

"Does he who disciplines nations not punish? Does he who teaches mankind lack knowledge?" (Psalm 94:10)

My question to him, is if he finds it okay to steal people's stuff so long as they are bad people, are you 100% okay with stealing content from others? You cannot have it either way, let alone both. What if it was YOUR characters being stolen by others out of pettiness? Would you react with utter anger and condemn the action, whilst not reflecting on what you did? To use your own words, look in the mirror. I'm sorry, but combined with your whole gripe against Tyler, you are losing yourself and distracting away from your own line of "work" as you would call it. You are wasting your time.

But with all that being said, I deep down... actually feel bad for TheInvertedShadow...

"Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy." (Matthew 5:7)

"Do not gloat when your enemy falls; when they stumble, do not let your heart rejoice." (Proverbs 24:17)

"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds." (Psalm 147:3)

"Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be moved." (Psalm 55:22)

I deeply understand that he is having a rough time with family life (especially through the pandemic which might also contribute to his mental health, which unfortunately worsened not just his, but so many [if not all] others internationally), his life must be very rough, suffering from all the anxiety and duress that Tyler had caused him, most of his works being erased into the void ever since his computer got botched not so long ago (even though he got a new one if I am not mistaken), most works sadly not seeing the light of day like Fiammetta Origins for example... some friends betraying his trust and turning out to be malign actors like Wubcake... it's all so rough.

"Even my close friend, someone I trusted, one who shared my bread, has turned against me." (Psalm 41:9)

"A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for a time of adversity." (Proverbs 17:17)

I too felt betrayal from the likes of Valve Software, and it is one of those reasons why I want to stop relying on corporate businesses and diverge towards indies. Especially in how badly they treat workers in most cases and the consumer.

"Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you." (Ephesians 4:31-32)

"See to it that no one falls short of the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many." (Hebrews 12:15)

"A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger." (Proverbs 15:1)

"Brothers and sisters, if someone is caught in a sin, you who live by the Spirit should restore that person gently." (Galatians 6:1)

But once the pain becomes hatred... that's when things take a toll on one's heart and mind. What matters - like I said... is to softly confront them first without aggression, but to oppose what they have done and/or said, and have them divert their current course.

"But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of

themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good." (2 Timothy 3:1-3)

"Woe to those who call evil good and good evil, who put darkness for light and light for darkness." (Isaiah 5:20)

"The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?" (Jeremiah 17:9)

"For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." (Ephesians 6:12)

"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind." (Romans 12:2)

"Let us examine our ways and test them, and let us return to the LORD." (Lamentations 3:40)

"For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline." (2 Timothy 1:7)

"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing!" (Isaiah 43:18-19)

"Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead." (Philippians 3:13)

"And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast." (1 Peter 5:10)

Which in this day and age... has sadly been left for dead due to how desensitised most of the world has become due to the presence of politics on social media (which MUST be banned and be put into an alternative internet platform type where lies, half-truths, all forms of bigotry, and advocacy to violence, is strictly forbidden and severely punishable - like bans), mortal rights being violated at the drop of a hat, right to privacy and the internet being trampled, evil in this world being unfortunately dominant and favoured more than good, risen drug addictions, wars breaking out globally... the world is going to shit, which is also why I had decided to make an effort to introspect and actually seek professional help with the psychiatrist - who works in the town of Armagh in the country I reside, and figure out ways to manage myself - to let bygones be bygones.

My main take away to all this in what I had learned is that... it is so easy to be confrontational, hateful, and angry against people that have wronged you, like Kugawattan, SarisKhan, ShermanZAtank, and Xho has, but in doing so can corrupt you as a Soul, and it makes you become miserable, heavy hearted, bitter, and having the joy in your life being not as present as it used to be. And that is the very lesson, that I've learnt the hard way, and I feel so guilty in letting all these burdens and grudges within, to persist for over a decade ever since Kugawattan poisoned the nature of the TF2 Freakshow community (and by extension, the Gmod machinima community), and given how he treated the userbase in wikis and others around him. Which in my case, put me on this whole vendetta against the TF2 Freakshow community overtime until there was a point of no return... when I should have approached all this peacefully first... and now I wonder... if I had joined this community in my late teens instead (or even early adulthood at the latest), would things turn out differently? That's something I hope you people could understand where I am coming from. I was too young. I exercised poor judgement. I allowed myself to be immersed in environments I was not mature enough to navigate. That is not an excuse - it is an admission. If such a community should even allow younger people to take part in the first place. But I guess it is what it is... You don't have to take my word for it regarding Kugawattan BTW... take the word from my former friend... GmodViolet. I mean... I don't expect everything to be super tame and sanitised but... can't we all have at least some compassion, wisdom, decency, trust, and fairness? That's all I'm asking...

So, to TheInvertedShadow - in the unlikely scenario you would come across this... I respectfully ask that any mentions, call‑outs, or references to me - whether in tweets, BlueSky posts, DeviantArt posts, or YouTube videos - be removed where reasonably possible. If feasible, I also ask to be edited out of existing videos. This is not about rewriting history. It is not about silencing criticism. It is not about avoiding accountability. It is about ending a cycle. I am choosing to step away from public dispute and long‑running conflict. I no longer wish to be part of an ongoing narrative that keeps wounds open and keeps both of us entangled in something that should have ended long ago.

Scripture teaches:

"Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called children of God." (Matthew 5:9)

Peacemaking sometimes requires restraint. Sometimes it requires stepping back rather than pressing forward. This is one of those moments. There is, however, one area where I make a clear distinction.

Evidence regarding Tyler Wilson should remain accessible. He is a genuine threat to children and early teenagers, and that is not a matter of internet drama - it is a matter of criminal justice.

But I must say this clearly and responsibly: social media posts and videos alone rarely bring justice. Awareness has limits. Sensational uploads do not substitute for lawful process.

If there is credible evidence, the proper path is:

Printing and preserving all documentation

Including real‑world identification where lawfully obtained

Submitting it to appropriate legal authorities

Pursuing formal legal channels

Encouraging structured legal advocacy, not online spectacle

Justice must be pursued lawfully, not theatrically.

Furthermore, if incarceration occurs, it should not only be punitive but corrective. Professional psychiatric evaluation and treatment should accompany any sentence. Justice without rehabilitation risks perpetuating harm rather than preventing it. I say this gently but directly: sensationalism weakens credibility.

When serious topics are presented with theatrical emphasis, cryptic insinuations, selective disclosure, or performative rhetoric, the result is confusion rather than clarity. Transparency requires completeness, not innuendo. Authority requires substance, not spectacle. If the aim is honesty, then clarity must outweigh dramatics. If the aim is accountability, then fairness must outweigh personal narrative control. This is not a criticism unique to you. Many online creators - perhaps most, drift toward performative intensity over sober substance when addressing serious matters. It is a systemic issue in digital culture. To add to this; authority carries moral weight. When individuals are banned without full public explanation, when reasons are vaguely referenced rather than clearly articulated, when context is withheld while conclusions are announced, distrust grows.

Transparency is not selective disclosure.

Transparency is not cryptic commentary.

Transparency is not controlled narrative framing.

If fairness and integrity are the goals, then openness must accompany judgement - especially when reputations are involved. But systemic problems do not excuse individual responsibility.

The internet has become a place where anonymity shields the malicious and punishes the conscientious.

I believe serious reform must eventually include stronger accountability structures - potentially including independent moderation bodies, and in‑person identity verification for account creation. In other words, obtaining a physical license. Such systems should not exist to limit access to social media in general, or expression, but to ensure that those who use platforms for violence, exploitation, criminal activity, or severe defamation can be lawfully identified when necessary. In short, it must be about accountability of the account maker, as opposed to blocking access to all social media sites. And I hope people can see where I am coming from...

This must never become a tool for mass surveillance.

It must never be retroactive.

It must never involve automatic data sharing.

Personal identification should only be accessed by authorities when genuine criminal thresholds are met - such as credible threats, advocacy of violence, exploitation, organised cyber‑crime, or demonstrable defamation.

The purpose would not be control. It would be responsibility.

To again repeat… I am sorry for everything, and I mean it sincerely… and I truly forgive you for everything, I will forgive Kugawattan and the other TF2 Freakologists, and I forgive TurkishPhantom. Going forward, I want to help save you, not out of control, but as spiritual guidance. Thank you for showing me the error of my ways. To leave you with a quote in an alternative way of what Mr. Puzzles said… "We may never be friends, and it could be the way it is going to be. But if my hopeful guidance gives both of you a droplet of peace spiritually, in order to save you as Souls, and to diverge your courses away from sin… at least I did one thing right…" Thank you...

TLDR Version

This letter is directed at a specific group of online community members (listed by username), primarily within the Garry’s Mod (Gmod) and Source Filmmaker (SFM) communities.

This is not written out of hatred or a desire to attack, but as a sincere appeal rooted in Christian faith and personal growth.

Forgiveness does not mean excusing wrongdoing - it means refusing to let bitterness rule your heart.

Moral humility, not moral blindness, is required (Matthew 7:1–2).

The right order is: seek healing first, then soft confrontation if needed, and hatred should ideally never come at all.

Every person has inherent dignity as someone made in the image of God, regardless of their flaws.

Chris has allegedly distorted the author’s arguments. The actual argument: bigots (including misopedists) should not be the ones leading the charge to protect the very group they despise - it is hypocritical and undermines the cause. words, misrepresenting their stance on misopedism and child predators.

Concerns are also raised about Chris normalising bigotry publicly while simultaneously opposing child predators, which the author finds deeply contradictory.

Despite this, the author expresses genuine sympathy for Chris’s personal hardships (family struggles, anxiety, lost creative work, betrayal by friends).

The author admits to having held grudges for over a decade stemming from conflicts in the TF2 Freakshow/Gmod community, particularly involving a user called Kugawattan.

They acknowledge being too young and emotionally immature when initially entering these communities.

They are now actively seeking professional help (psychiatrist in Armagh) and working to let go of longstanding bitterness.

Remove any public mentions, call-outs, or references to the author (tweets, BlueSky, DeviantArt, YouTube) where reasonably possible.

This is about ending an ongoing cycle of conflict, not erasing history or avoiding accountability.

Evidence regarding Tyler Wilson (an alleged genuine threat to minors) should remain accessible, but pursued through proper legal channels - not online spectacle.

The author advocates for eventual reform of online platforms, including stronger accountability structures (e.g., identity verification for account creation).

This must never become mass surveillance - personal identification should only be accessed by authorities when genuine criminal thresholds are met.

Online sensationalism and preformative rhetoric are criticised as weakening credibility when addressing serious matters.

The author sincerely apologises for their own past conduct and expresses forgiveness toward those who have wronged them. The letter closes as an invitation to peace, not a verdict - grounded in the hope that spiritual reflection can lead to genuine change for all parties involved.

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