Magick users are something else, literally
Blah, I'm just lingering here digesting how I must transcend duality to not wind up homeless again (you know how family is), thinking through what I must think, and thus my thinking was interrupted by a daemon within me - those animalistic subsystems that make up the system "you" are - that has been thoroughly conditioned by the Illuminati to put that memetic bullshits into words and here we are.
Is it nuts, what I just said? I dunno, is China nuts because they use weird fucking symbols that cannot possibly mean anything, at least in my limited exposure to the world? Kumquat says I need to take my meds, so obviously if my phone's keyboard decides to send me synchronous messages, I should ignore that because I'm on my meds.
But no, really, I would not have understood myself fifteen+ years ago, and I am the type of divergent that intuitively understands what "perceive n undo the karmic fetters that bind you to the existence-illusion complex" means, so it is safe for me to say now and forever that 98% of the America's population does not understand me, which is weird, cuz I understand that ish they talk about!
Coin sound effect. Dopamine. Wiring. Association. Free association. This is how the decentralized autonomous organization of secret police communicates with me! God just speaks in whispers/burning bushes/white rabbit, obviously. But, what DON'T you know? Almost everything is the right answer, cuz it's the right answer for me, and I'm a fackin' sorcerer, whatever that is.
I'll cast Lot's wife, I'll tell ya that much, but forgive my French, which is a hint for the unordained in the hidden matters of the world, obviously.
Hey, I mean this with complete respect and no judgment at all, but it sounds like you are under an immense amount of real-world stress right now with your family and housing situation. When you mentioned ignoring your meds and hearing things in your phone, it really sounds like a sign to pause. I think you'd be much better served talking to a doctor or a mental health professional right now who can help you navigate all this heavy stuff safely rather than an online group discussing potentially triggering topics.
Hey man, I mean this in complete reciprocation of your energies, but you're saying the same thing 50,000 figurative other "observers" have said, just 16-32% more polite. The key to being a good person is to "investigate" those that you wish to help, so you may better help those falling off the wagon who may just need a genuine kindness and not some more pills. Because I perceive this to be a type of message past me would send people in distress having been a quasi-predator fifteen years ago as a child in my deficiencies, and I have to say that this is "gold beads and shallow flattery," which is a MASH reference, but if this doesn't apply to you, understand that there are a figurative 48,000 other people who will see this message whom it would help in the qualities of objective goodness reading these words. That's about the ratio the archetypes in question proliferate in humanity. That's why I used those numbers. My boss at the F-uh, the CIA told me this. That's qho I worq for.