Went to a somewhat work-tangent offline meetup on Tuesday... Supposed to be not related to research, but some professors showed up anyways & I was presenting so I got quite nervous. My old nemesis where I get sick whenever I'm too stressed flared up again and I was sick the entirety of yesterday and now today, just when I was recovering from something else 🥲
Talked with a psychologist again in a long time. Apparently I no longer have issues with depression, but my work-induced anxiety from 2025 never went away. Currently trying to adjust my schedule to help reduce anxiety. hoping that things improve within 2 weeks
Also fun story, one of the guys at the meetup somehow found my old blog that I did not update since 2024. I never had my name attached to that blog and I'm pretty sure I wrote in my robots.txt for it to not be indexed. I guess either make it an open secret or I have to really up my opsec game, leaning towards the former
I feel like kicking butt and have this weird feeling that i need to do something but idk what. so i'm running around in school and high-fiving like 5 people in a row just to then write some notes about some abstract philosophical topics.
Idk feel so weird that the house is much quieter...
My mom and older brother went to visit China...
The house now has a sort of vibe that kinda feels uncanny
yeah the lonely house syndrome is real
it starts with quiet and slowly degrades into insanity until some noise is made, for example a local radio station or sth
that's why i don't live alone.
Doing alright, thanks. You?
Dieting is affecting my stomach, so I'm up at weird hours lately, but work is going alright.
Went to a somewhat work-tangent offline meetup on Tuesday... Supposed to be not related to research, but some professors showed up anyways & I was presenting so I got quite nervous. My old nemesis where I get sick whenever I'm too stressed flared up again and I was sick the entirety of yesterday and now today, just when I was recovering from something else 🥲
Talked with a psychologist again in a long time. Apparently I no longer have issues with depression, but my work-induced anxiety from 2025 never went away. Currently trying to adjust my schedule to help reduce anxiety. hoping that things improve within 2 weeks
Also fun story, one of the guys at the meetup somehow found my old blog that I did not update since 2024. I never had my name attached to that blog and I'm pretty sure I wrote in my robots.txt for it to not be indexed. I guess either make it an open secret or I have to really up my opsec game, leaning towards the former
I feel like kicking butt and have this weird feeling that i need to do something but idk what. so i'm running around in school and high-fiving like 5 people in a row just to then write some notes about some abstract philosophical topics.