Why do I still see my posts after they are deleted?

Authors and mods see them. They are not permanently deleted.

I am a community moderator, can I somehow hide deleted messages from my own?

Don't know, probably not.

Thanks for your help!

FYI the text of deleted posts is automatically wiped after 30 days.

Oh, that's good.

Always assume nothing online is ever really deleted.
You and the admins can see what you flag as 'delete', because it's always still there.

because in soviet russia, you dont delete a post. a post deletes you.

Okay, next question, how do you know where I am? :)