It's Jan 1st, 2026. I'm orgasmfree day 25. When I started this, I didn't fully appreciate that my cage is really a means to an end for me. My primary interest in chastity is truly orgasm denial and (cultivating) its effects on me. So, although I have posted previous updates from days 24, 21, and 11 of this streak in other communities, I think it fits better to post here going forward.

A brief (re-)introduction. I'm a semi-closeted transfeminine AMAB beta sissy sub. I'm pan. I'm much more attracted to women than men, although I'm really attracted to cocks. I don't like topping with my cock because it causes dysphoria, but using a strap-on is fun. My goal with orgasm denial is to cultivate feminine and submissive aspects of my personality that I typically suppress due to a lack of confidence and from having internalized restrictive gender norms and transphobia. Anal masturbation, (receptive) sex, and orgasms are 100% allowed in my orgasmfree practice. What aren't allowed are any penile orgasm or penile stimulation. My goal is to be orgasmfree all of 2026 🤞. I'm doing this solo.

For me, orgasm denial increases psychological tension and sexual arousal. It also makes me more feminine, submissive, and lustful for cocks. These effects aren't constantly on, but they are on much more than usual, like most of the time. And the effects are intense, like a 6 or a 7 out of 10. As I come off holidays, I'm going to have to figure out how to get back to work and not look at erotic content online 6+ hours a day (nervous chuckle).

Here are a few specific effects - honing in on some psychology - that I've been noticing lately. (They are plausibly but not necessarily related to the orgasm denial)

• Being transfemme/ sissy/ whatever, it's really lovely to notice a part of your body that you find attractive in that way. I had such a moment when I was taking off pants and noticed my shapely and recently shaven calves. I have done the same with my eyebrows that I went to the salon to have shaped. Less face dysphoria is a big win and it's not that pricey

• I'm putting a little more thought into getting ready, dressing and accessorizing a little more femininely, and I'm actually enjoying getting ready a bit and finding it affirming

• Whereas I used to fap and come in minutes, it probably takes me 30-90 minutes to enjoy anal masturbation, so I've learned that I need to schedule it a bit lol. I also need to profoundly accept that I probably won't come. It probably takes me so long because I use some physical exhaustion to help bring about a feeling of the session being over and to ward off feelings of breaking orgasm denial in that potentially extra frustrated state

• I can't sissygasm, and I've accepted that to do so will probably require some sustained pelvic floor exericises outside of play time

• My previous best orgasm denial streak is 52 days. Both then and now I've yet to do much leaking outside of play time (and even during play time). I think male bodies vary in what they do with the unreleased ejaculate. Mine seems to reabsorb it, which disappoints me. The thought of leaking a lot and meaningfully having to use panty liners, especially when out of the home, was so hot for me. Who knows, if I'm lucky, that day may come!

I will be celebrating 1 month orgasmfree on the 8th!!! 🫶 Thanks to all those for reading and helping me stay on-track 😘