Shout out to the legend trying to intimidate me in his new Audi this morning. Bruh I'm in a shitbox hatchback missing more paint than I have emotional issues, you really think I'm scared of you hitting my car? Its 6am, windy AF and I'm doing the limit. The threat of you scratching your +100k car against my 7k (If that!) car aint the threat you think it is.
Hey now, you don't how stressful his high powered and important life is. Do you know how expensive Audis are and how much bullshit one hast to put up with to afford one??
Next time, get out of his (yeah that's right...HIS) lane and carry on with your lowly non-Audi-owning life.
Bro is game even driving it around my suburb. I mean its not fankston, but we've got more commodores with exhausts cut off than we do BMWs. Dunno whos worse, the teens fanging it or the soccer mums in huge SUVs they never quite mastered.
Similar mix to my hood. Done up cars drive by either young european dudes OR european dudes my age that haven't grown up yet. SUVs driven by people who can't drive. Mercs, BMWs and Porsche Cayannes all over...again aggressive and clueless.
The new breed seem to the Rovers. Seeing heaps of them around for some reason.
::: spoiler TW suicide
Paracetamol doesn't really affect me, after I tried to off myself with it. I take one, if I have nothing else, but it's mostly for the placebo affect and I tend to avoid it anyway.
:::
Just took Sammi for her ultrasound - poor love hadn't been herself all yesterday to the point where I phoned the vet again - they suggested admitted her overnight but there wouldn't have been anyone there so I decided to keep her home. Wise choice - the wind woke us both up at 3 and she was straight off with the snuggles and purrs and this morning she was demanding breakfast - unfortunately I couldn't give her it since it's a fasting procedure.
Now having a coffee and cake in Mentone while I wait for the school traffic to clear.
I was convinced I was gonna walk out to find the pergola gone. It was built by an idiot before we brought the dump so its not exactly structurally sound.
Outcome of the ultrasound with Sammi - no obvious tumours or obstruction. Enlarged lymph nodes in her stomach, so they want to proceed with the other ultrasound and take some samples. Meanwhile she's home alert and hungry.
In other news there was a three vehicle stack in the middle of Main Street Mordialloc on the way home. Hopefully it's cleared by now...
Well... it's in. The assignment is in - but I feel so thoroughly muted about it because it turns out my supervisor had to go through what I'd written with a lot of red ink pixels and rewrite a chunk of it. He wasn't at all trying to put me down, if anything just help me so I'd get this across the line, but I feel like I have such a long, long, long way to go and I might have bitten off more than I can chew. I really feel quite low about how limited my brain capacity is compared to 5 years ago. Would love to have some kind of win this week to feel better about myself :(
For sure, I have been very lucky to have a supportive mentor, I just feel like I've failed him (and myself) a bit - but better not to dwell on it, onward we go, even if the end result isn't really ground breaking or entirely my idea, I'll have learned something from it I hope.
I really was hoping to go visit my aunt at the end of the month for a break + TLC but it seems like she might have other plans (lots going on in her life as well). I might head to my hidey hole in NSW if she isn't available. I really would like to unplug for a bit
A person with the surname 'Hands' logged a ticket today saying 'Could you please assist me with [blahblahblah]' and I feel like she missed the greatest opportunity.
More of a spray here (we got the heavy earlier) fortunately just as I dropped the papou home. And fortunately over by the time I picked up Sammi. Can't say the same for the wind, much to her chagrin.
If it’s any consolation those absences probably mean shit is hitting the fan for a few staff behind the scenes over this fiasco, and the power trips are just her pettily taking that out on you. Classic HR behaviour. But it really doesn’t help the lasting effect you’re experiencing.
Btw the rage is incredibly normal in the circumstances and along with the rest may be a symptom of ptsd. I’m really hoping one day you can get well away from these incompetent chucklefucks because what you’re going through is so difficult.
I’m wondering if (for now) you can jam a chair under the door handle for extra reinforcement or warning, put metal pots that would topple making noise, and keep an uncapped can of oven cleaner spray handy?
At least then it would be a more specific sound heralding trouble so you might feel less jumpy at smaller noises, and you would have something to grab if you felt threatened. Whatever helps.
Edit: Even just a firm door wedge or a temporary lock might be some protection, delay, or help alert you.
You can even improvise with a fork which isn’t perfect but is something that can be done fairly quickly short term to give some early warning.
Ps. I hope this unsolicited advice isn’t stressing you out worse or making you angry. It’s a bad habit of mine. Just hoping there might be some comfort or something workable in there.
::: spoiler Cat rambles
Melbcat got her antibiotics yesterday! Now I have to wrestle her (gently) to ensure she swallows the weird banana flavoured liquid instead of sneakily spitting it out. I am deeply unpopular for a few minutes afterwards (until it’s time to cuddle again).
If the infection reoccurs after this she may be referred to a specialist to check for underlying causes. I’m so glad I’ve maintained a bit of an emergency fund because if need be I will absolutely be getting a lift and going for it.
:::
I’ve found an old smaller sketchbook + just a normal pencil sharpened in a standard way (both more portable) and am using it to scribble for art exercises. I’m also doing them as multiple tiny drawings on one page just so it doesn’t take forever to get the idea down, shade, draw precise lines or just finish. Also doing it while watching trashy video essays on youtube.
I really don’t have a lot of spare energy to create so trying to lose the perfectionism and just do easy structured doodles is probably the only way I could get anything done.
Update - there was a miscommunication and Sammi was booked for next Wednesday for her ultrasound. Fortunately they do have an in-house machine and one of the vets is very proficient in its use, so just waiting to hear the outcome of that.
Meanwhile took Zooks in later to see the senior vet as her ears have been rashy and he suggested (with Sammi) that it may have been gastro, and since she does like raw chicken... it's possible. Meanwhile I have to give Zooks eardrops for a week. Wish me luck...
Generally they are much more resistant to any bacteria etc. than we are. It's important to get it from a decent supplier though, cross contamination etc. are more of a risk than the meat itself.
Mr Woof gets raw meat, but Miss Meow is not allowed because she is immune deficient.
Yes, dog licks are disgusting. When I first got Mr Woof he was in the habit of trying to lick my face whenever he got a bit excited. After much coaching and my advice that "no one likes a dog that can't hold his licker" that problem is under control and we are now a lick free household.
I have a personal computer for the first time in over four years (my last company was very lax and I used their laptop for most things). Now I have Steam installed for first time in just as long. Very excite
Even at lax places I've never been able to get past knowing they can look at my web history and that it's technically not my computer, plus there's always those user account controls that mean I couldn't install anything.
I got: Lenovo LOQ 15.6" FHD 144Hz Gaming Laptop (Intel Core i5)[GeForce RTX 2050]. The only game I'll play is Dota 2 probably so this should do the trick nicely
It's good you know what you need it for. I built a pretty hectic PC a little while ago and the most intensive thing I play I'd Elden Ring. Otherwise I'm happy with older games. I probably didn't need to go that hard with the specs
Is this any different to standing up and singing God Save the King/Queen/Whatever or the 'National Anthem' before sporting events? A ritual to be gabbled through before the real business begins. As such, it's a travesty of what such a welcome should be.
it was an ad hoc "telling off" meeting by a department who thinks they have power (and probably SHOULD have power) but in reality they dont. Kind of a nothing burger meeting.
what a weird dream, I dreamt I went to some not famous fashion designer in Rio of all places to get a party dress. I chose something simple and elegant in sky blue.
Traffic lights are down corner Sussex St and Bell St Pascoe Vale South, and police are directing traffic. Haven't seen police directing traffic for ages.
I'm pretty sure I heard some things toppling last night but I have a trajillion other priority things to do today so I'm not even going to look at anything until tomorrow tbh
This is the face of, "why are you at home during the week, and where the fuck are my treats homie."
Whos a handsome boy! Yes he is!
The look of "you better be here tomorrow mfer, I don't have opposable thumbs and those treats aren't opening by themselves (I've tried)".
She actually did try!!! I came home the other day and she'd grabbed the treat bag and had been gnawing at it to try to get to them.
Aw sweet Gibson, the beauty of her face and colours is awesome 💜💜
Oh my goodness 😂
The symmetry in her markings is something else 😻
You know, I didn't notice till I saw this picture!
Aaaaand now 5 of us are sick because old mate came to work sick yesterday.
Fucks sake.
Pee in his coffee mug (don’t do that…)
Conversely...do it
Currently the scores are even 7s. Will or will not Simon siphon?
Shout out to the legend trying to intimidate me in his new Audi this morning. Bruh I'm in a shitbox hatchback missing more paint than I have emotional issues, you really think I'm scared of you hitting my car? Its 6am, windy AF and I'm doing the limit. The threat of you scratching your +100k car against my 7k (If that!) car aint the threat you think it is.
Hey now, you don't how stressful his high powered and important life is. Do you know how expensive Audis are and how much bullshit one hast to put up with to afford one??
Next time, get out of his (yeah that's right...HIS) lane and carry on with your lowly non-Audi-owning life.
Bro is game even driving it around my suburb. I mean its not fankston, but we've got more commodores with exhausts cut off than we do BMWs. Dunno whos worse, the teens fanging it or the soccer mums in huge SUVs they never quite mastered.
Similar mix to my hood. Done up cars drive by either young european dudes OR european dudes my age that haven't grown up yet. SUVs driven by people who can't drive. Mercs, BMWs and Porsche Cayannes all over...again aggressive and clueless.
The new breed seem to the Rovers. Seeing heaps of them around for some reason.
Must have been the same one riding my backside on the way home. Ugh.
Good Lord, this headache is so painful. Paracetamol doesn't touch it, waiting for my partner to come back with some ibuprofen.
Stupid motherfucking teeth grinding. My whole head is throbbing 💀
you can get ibuprofen + paracetamol tablets now, and paracetamol + caffeine.
guessing the migraine havers are in power now lol
::: spoiler TW suicide Paracetamol doesn't really affect me, after I tried to off myself with it. I take one, if I have nothing else, but it's mostly for the placebo affect and I tend to avoid it anyway. :::
Ibuprofen has helped though!
Fair enough, you should state what the trigger is for though, otherwise it's no warning!
heat back can help. Can also hurt but if its throbbing maybe worth a try?
If you can get to a chemist, try something called "maxigesic". Take 2, lay down and put your thumbs gently behind your neck
Two tennis balls in a sock actually hit the spots on the average neck juuust right
flirt idea: are you melbourne’s winds? because you are blowing me away
Hey baby are you Melbourne's winds? Because I want you to keep me up all night blowing and banging
This might work if there's a high level of intoxication
Just remember to say 'away'.
::: spoiler NSFW Babe I appreciate your enthusiasm, but please stop blowing on my face! :::
🤭💨
I feel like that could go wrong so easily 😅
Just took Sammi for her ultrasound - poor love hadn't been herself all yesterday to the point where I phoned the vet again - they suggested admitted her overnight but there wouldn't have been anyone there so I decided to keep her home. Wise choice - the wind woke us both up at 3 and she was straight off with the snuggles and purrs and this morning she was demanding breakfast - unfortunately I couldn't give her it since it's a fasting procedure.
Now having a coffee and cake in Mentone while I wait for the school traffic to clear.
Sending hugs.
::: spoiler arriving back in Melbourne today
:::
That plane landing was a bit gross....
yeah, you don't want any food or drink nearby
but you are safe and that is the main thing 🙂
yeah its good to be home!
🏡🥰
Old mate next door walking around in circles with a leaf blower.
Love it.
My neighbour is watering and swearing his head off cause the water is going everywhere but his lawn.
I should note, the lawns are still damp from the rainfall last night.
Ya wot mate?
Roof is still on
I was convinced I was gonna walk out to find the pergola gone. It was built by an idiot before we brought the dump so its not exactly structurally sound.
Outcome of the ultrasound with Sammi - no obvious tumours or obstruction. Enlarged lymph nodes in her stomach, so they want to proceed with the other ultrasound and take some samples. Meanwhile she's home alert and hungry.
In other news there was a three vehicle stack in the middle of Main Street Mordialloc on the way home. Hopefully it's cleared by now...
so many hugs, hope she gets better soon
Well... it's in. The assignment is in - but I feel so thoroughly muted about it because it turns out my supervisor had to go through what I'd written with a lot of red
inkpixels and rewrite a chunk of it. He wasn't at all trying to put me down, if anything just help me so I'd get this across the line, but I feel like I have such a long, long, long way to go and I might have bitten off more than I can chew. I really feel quite low about how limited my brain capacity is compared to 5 years ago. Would love to have some kind of win this week to feel better about myself :(As counter-intuitive as it sounds having a supervisor being that interested in laying down a lot of red... is a win :)
I agree, it's a win.
two things are worse than having someone help edit
someone who gives praise and does nothing when it really does need help
someone who puts down for no reason when the work is perfectly fine
but i get it, it's a bit of an ego bruise
hugs
For sure, I have been very lucky to have a supportive mentor, I just feel like I've failed him (and myself) a bit - but better not to dwell on it, onward we go, even if the end result isn't really ground breaking or entirely my idea, I'll have learned something from it I hope.
having a mentor is the most wonderful thing in the world 🥹
so many hugs, sounds like you need a holiday
I really was hoping to go visit my aunt at the end of the month for a break + TLC but it seems like she might have other plans (lots going on in her life as well). I might head to my hidey hole in NSW if she isn't available. I really would like to unplug for a bit
A person with the surname 'Hands' logged a ticket today saying 'Could you please assist me with [blahblahblah]' and I feel like she missed the greatest opportunity.
as someone with a semi-interesting last night? I bet you hes 100% jack of it.
As someone who copped it through school, yep, I bet.
Unfurl the sails.
hoist the colours
Say what you want about those last couple of movies and Kira Knightly, but that was an incredible scene.
Got to my early morning grocery delivery before the birds this morning. It was out there for 15 minutes so they must have been busy
The gel stuff they use in those deliveries stays cold for a really long time. They're all enclosed as well so you'll get no birds in there
I have a meeting about the conclusion of my performance agreement at work tomorrow.
It's at 4pm on the last day of the pay cycle so I'm preparing myself for the worst
Fingers crossed for you mate 🤞🏾
🤞
Random heavy rain in CBD just as I'm leaving work 😭
I just started barbecuing haha
RIP
I need to know are they still on the BBQ?
Uh no. Why ?
Because I wanted one :(
Ohh bud I’m sorry.
Spicy pork. soooo good haha
It's raining horizontally out west. The wind is something else too
I brought my bin back in.
More of a spray here (we got the heavy earlier) fortunately just as I dropped the papou home. And fortunately over by the time I picked up Sammi. Can't say the same for the wind, much to her chagrin.
I left work just before it started to pour.
Couple of branches on the road in my way home.
The winds are going to be around till the end of the weekend sadly.
Also we have a guest in house massage service at work today.
I had a quick 10 minute back and should massage. God I could use another.
Dude I’m so sorry.
If it’s any consolation those absences probably mean shit is hitting the fan for a few staff behind the scenes over this fiasco, and the power trips are just her pettily taking that out on you. Classic HR behaviour. But it really doesn’t help the lasting effect you’re experiencing.
Btw the rage is incredibly normal in the circumstances and along with the rest may be a symptom of ptsd. I’m really hoping one day you can get well away from these incompetent chucklefucks because what you’re going through is so difficult.
I’m wondering if (for now) you can jam a chair under the door handle for extra reinforcement or warning, put metal pots that would topple making noise, and keep an uncapped can of oven cleaner spray handy?
At least then it would be a more specific sound heralding trouble so you might feel less jumpy at smaller noises, and you would have something to grab if you felt threatened. Whatever helps.
Edit: Even just a firm door wedge or a temporary lock might be some protection, delay, or help alert you.
You can even improvise with a fork which isn’t perfect but is something that can be done fairly quickly short term to give some early warning.
Ps. I hope this unsolicited advice isn’t stressing you out worse or making you angry. It’s a bad habit of mine. Just hoping there might be some comfort or something workable in there.
These organisations are all about saving face but I suspect at least some manure is flying behind the scenes.
And yeah, I totally get it.
God, that whole situation sounds awful. You're doing the right thing by pushing and calling everyday to follow up on things.
Learning that LMS will keep you busy. They're done of the worst programs ever made. At least you have something to take your mind off things
Not unfair expectations at all.
They royally fucked up and failed to protect you. And they’re still failing to protect you.
So many hugs.
more hugs
oh the weather outside is frightful
There's some lovely sun and also hectic wimd, please tell me how I should feel about this as I am confused
I think it's gonna get worse. I'm going out for supplies soon.
i’m going out to work in a few hours
Stay safe Bac!
Don’t forget the biscuits
🙉
The peregrine are back in the city. I think she has laid two eggs so far https://www.youtube.com/live/VLLNNTjaSEA?si=NIcrIT3OZVQUcPHr
::: spoiler Cat rambles Melbcat got her antibiotics yesterday! Now I have to wrestle her (gently) to ensure she swallows the weird banana flavoured liquid instead of sneakily spitting it out. I am deeply unpopular for a few minutes afterwards (until it’s time to cuddle again).
If the infection reoccurs after this she may be referred to a specialist to check for underlying causes. I’m so glad I’ve maintained a bit of an emergency fund because if need be I will absolutely be getting a lift and going for it. :::
I’ve found an old smaller sketchbook + just a normal pencil sharpened in a standard way (both more portable) and am using it to scribble for art exercises. I’m also doing them as multiple tiny drawings on one page just so it doesn’t take forever to get the idea down, shade, draw precise lines or just finish. Also doing it while watching trashy video essays on youtube.
I really don’t have a lot of spare energy to create so trying to lose the perfectionism and just do easy structured doodles is probably the only way I could get anything done.
here comes the rain again - eurhythmics
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TzFnYcIqj6I
It’s raining Men!
I love a rainy night - Eddie Rabbitt
Break in the weather - Jenny Morris
Stormy Weather
Who'll stop the rain
Who let in the rain
Whitlams, Melbourne
Saxon
Kalendar - Attwenger
November Rain Purple Rain
Scorpions Rock you like a Hurricane
Sweater weather
Raining In My Heart - The Cranberries
I have shifted wake up time to 6am from 7. I enjoy the darker start to the day.
Good night. 🤧 Sweet dreams. 😘
You too!
Update - there was a miscommunication and Sammi was booked for next Wednesday for her ultrasound. Fortunately they do have an in-house machine and one of the vets is very proficient in its use, so just waiting to hear the outcome of that.
Meanwhile took Zooks in later to see the senior vet as her ears have been rashy and he suggested (with Sammi) that it may have been gastro, and since she does like raw chicken... it's possible. Meanwhile I have to give Zooks eardrops for a week. Wish me luck...
combine the drops with an ear massage and they'll beg for it
Generally they are much more resistant to any bacteria etc. than we are. It's important to get it from a decent supplier though, cross contamination etc. are more of a risk than the meat itself.
Mr Woof gets raw meat, but Miss Meow is not allowed because she is immune deficient.
Yes, dog licks are disgusting. When I first got Mr Woof he was in the habit of trying to lick my face whenever he got a bit excited. After much coaching and my advice that "no one likes a dog that can't hold his licker" that problem is under control and we are now a lick free household.
I have a personal computer for the first time in over four years (my last company was very lax and I used their laptop for most things). Now I have Steam installed for first time in just as long. Very excite
Even at lax places I've never been able to get past knowing they can look at my web history and that it's technically not my computer, plus there's always those user account controls that mean I couldn't install anything.
What did you end up getting?
I got: Lenovo LOQ 15.6" FHD 144Hz Gaming Laptop (Intel Core i5)[GeForce RTX 2050]. The only game I'll play is Dota 2 probably so this should do the trick nicely
It's good you know what you need it for. I built a pretty hectic PC a little while ago and the most intensive thing I play I'd Elden Ring. Otherwise I'm happy with older games. I probably didn't need to go that hard with the specs
MARGE
... aaaand gone.
we're doing a welcome to country before every meeting now?!
Is this any different to standing up and singing God Save the King/Queen/Whatever or the 'National Anthem' before sporting events? A ritual to be gabbled through before the real business begins. As such, it's a travesty of what such a welcome should be.
I like when we have an elder do a welcome to country. It's different and always pretty cool.
Doing the acknowledgement before every meeting is basically tokenism at this point.
This is very much my feeling. And if you’re going to do it every bloody time at least use the short form not the 6 paragraph version.
Disclaimer I have a genetic but not cultural link here, so don’t often claim.
Hundred percent. That feels like we're honoring the indigenous communities.
Yep, you'd find I'd have the exact same reaction to god save the king before each meeting. Are we really gonna do this 6 or 7 times a week?
Welcome to country, or acknowledgement of country?
I'm pretty sure a welcome to country should only be done by a first people's elder (or representative)
they said "welcome to country" but I suspect they meant acknowledgment.
That makes it even worse!!!!
wait, is this like a union meeting, or a mid week office catchup?
The former is ok, the latter is fuuuuuuck off
it was an ad hoc "telling off" meeting by a department who thinks they have power (and probably SHOULD have power) but in reality they dont. Kind of a nothing burger meeting.
Yeah fuck that. The whole acknowledgment was probably an attempt to look more important by them
that was a looong sleep
what a weird dream, I dreamt I went to some not famous fashion designer in Rio of all places to get a party dress. I chose something simple and elegant in sky blue.
Traffic lights are down corner Sussex St and Bell St Pascoe Vale South, and police are directing traffic. Haven't seen police directing traffic for ages.
ugh. Severely disappointed with zero co now.
The Void is unimpressed with his diet. Both our knees are nastily niped
Ew gross sleep. Not looking forward to work
I'm pretty sure I heard some things toppling last night but I have a trajillion other priority things to do today so I'm not even going to look at anything until tomorrow tbh
I had an empty 20L bucket go missing. Bon voyage bucket. May your journey be full of wonder and adventure.
well that was exciting
a tempest came through the north just as I was just coming home
of course I didn't have my raincoat on nor a hair tie.
Honk Honk ⛵️
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Leadenhall scones with heavy cream and stone fruit jam please. With a bit of luck I won't get blown away with that on board.
🏛🥯💣🥛🪨🍯
Goose egg salad please.
🥚🥗
Thanks, delicious
Tornado omelet please
💨🥚
Ahoy!
🍻
I would like two hermit crabs clamped to my nipples please. Lemon flavour
Oh do I know the club for you…
We've probably already met
please enjoy your free mantis shrimp upgrade 🦐🦐🍋
WTF. I just saw the news about a man who poured a thermos of hot coffee on a baby.
I love this. baaaad logos
Got a recommend for a YT video "tiny home on wheels is stunning" 🤡
um, that's called living in your car 😫